have you ever been t a place where you start missing it only 10 years+ later? well i know i did. and it's not just any place. when my brother's and i were little, momma always brings us t ginza plaza. can't remember why though. and in this common building holds a place where i now feel like running back to. a playground. it's located at th rooftop. and i remember th feeling whenever the doors of th lift open, bringing me to that special place. th grounds of th playground was not cement, but grass. can't remember if it's real or fake though. it's crystal clear to me how i felt whenever i saw that familiar place, being there just feels like i'm in a different world. my world where i am free t be myself and forget everything. yeah, i was really really little back then. and they have some swings specially for babies. i swear to god i loved them. i can't really remember how th rest of th places looks like. perhaps they did hang some fake baby blue skies or smth, cause i remember how magical and fantasy-cal it felt. fantasy-cal? hah.
yeah whatever. but fantasy is an understatement. i have been silently thinking about this place th past years.
th best thing about being a two year old again, is th fact that you don't have to battle with your own feelings, th way we do now. also to feel safe, being in th knowledge that by hook or by crook, someone will be there to catch your back or t help you up when you fall and bleed. trust me, it's always better to bleed through your skin, never through yourheart. cause it hurts real bad. even worse than putting medication on your bleeding, bare skin i guess.
i just wanna go to that place and feel magical and special again. th place where all th other kids don't understand each other, but still get along together.
work was as usual, full of 'hey welcome' and 'you're welcome/pleasure' haha, sheesh. i think if i were to be paid for th number of times those phrases are being said, i'll be super rich by now, hehehe. okay dream on, i know(:
nothing significant took place today. oh maybe just one! being touched by a little baby(: hehe. OH AND HELL YEAH, ONE MOREEEEE! during my break earlier just now, i was walking and i saw thisgorgeous top, or dress perhaps. it's leather at th upper part, and normal fabric at th bottom(: first look at it and i fell in love with it(: plus! i was onthfone with love at that moment, and he was th one who endured my excitement and squeals on th fone, hehe. maybe we're just leather freaks, haha -.- since i didn't carry much cash with me, i decided to make a reservation, and i'll come collect it this friday onthway to work(: oh, and did i mention that particular shop is located exactly beside th shop i work for? hahaha.
have been doing quite some thinking and planning these few days. god knows what's on my unpredictable head(: have been missing love as usual, plus babies and little kids somehow reminds me of him(: ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i wanna look into those keropokeyes and tell him i miss him ); haish. LOVE, you know i do right? ):
off from work tomorrow, but heading to johore with momma and maybe girlfy! i swear i miss her much, it's been sometime since we've met :/ love's heading to fico, have fun bby(: i'll miss you as usual, no doubt. hugs and kisses, i miss you.
getting ready for work, and i just wishhhhhhhhhhhh they won't play sean kingston's music again. i meant, come onnnn, sean kingston sey -.-
endured six pathetic hours yesterday listening t those repeated songs. i feel like bringing my own player or something and blast it. hmmm maybe i'll ask them for permission today. god, SEAN KINGSTON man. tsktsk.
LOVE. I. SWEAR. TO. GOD. I'M. GONNA. MISS. YOU. TSK ):
another batch of newborn babies (phhhhst, th rest of th pics will be at my multiply! will upload asap)
alright! today is actually 11th of dec, but i'm still gonna blog it as th 9th! hehehe cause that was actually th actual date of my date with love(: since th pictures have done th introduction, i'll just wrap it up!
my day on this particular day was just awesome. i have to say all my dates with love was just as great and awesome. but still, i have to admit that this date was something new, something different, something alittle more stupendous with a little touch of romance and love written all over it(: hehe, complicated much?
as promised, someone treated me to seoulgarden at marina square. i dont have to elaborate on how delicious th food was, cause i think it is(: love even helped himself with another batch of different kinds of chicken! hehe. after filling our tummies, headed to peninsula to look at something he has been eyeing for, for quite some time(: walked around alittle, saw ADELPHI. hahaha gosh, inside joke anyway, winks*
after that, walked t th riverside and spend some time there. then comes my favouriteeeee part which was th phototaking part hehe. it's like, 10 shots is just not enoughhhh. hahaha and love was like laughing at how ridiculous we are, setting th timer, running t th desired spot, then smile for th camera while th people around was somehow looking. hehehe. but who cares? i know i donttttt (:
then after some walking, we made our way opposite esplanade, at th merlion(: it was already dark by th time we reached, and th atmosphere was just beautiful. it was picture perfect, really. with th gentle wind hitting our faces, gorgeous scene around us, and some lovely words said by love, everything just falls beautifully into place. hehe corny hmmm. but hey, that's how it was that night(: ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss that night terribly ): walked around alittle, blahblahblah then cabbbbbed home together. gosh, it was all awesome(:
okay i betttt you cupcakes can skip this part!
yes love, i know exactly how much you miss this very day cause that's what i'm feeling too(: but hey, as we promised, future's gonna a muchmuch more memorable and great for us. cause we believe that for us, every date is like a first date(: thanks for the treat, and this wonderful night that i'm sure will be kept safely and cherished in my heart and in my box of memories. i love you.
the game we're living is just unpredictable don't you think? haha sheesh, enough of me and my bull crap about life being a game and whatever, i'm only sixteen and i'm speaking like i'm sixty. haha but hey seriously. even in your most trivial relationships will you realise how the littlest thing regarding feelings, matter. matter the most.
okay whatever, i'm making this as fast as possible here for, i dont know what reason. but anyway, its 1:14 am but i'm still posting it as 8 dec. i woke up with a totally different feeling this morn, and i'm feeling another different feeling currently. tsk, i think i'm crazy ): there's alot of feelings to be blurted out, in my usual way. using my own words so that people will have a hell of a time figuring out what i actually meant. i enjoy that, heh. *lopsided smile
headed to grandmomma's place till late night. i enjoy spending every moment chasing ryian anaque around the house, trying to make him smile and laugh, and i especially enjoy the moment when he tried to coax me when i pretended to sulk. i swear i miss that small guy already(:
can't wait for my morning excitement tomorrow morning, breathing in the fresh air and bathing in my own pure crystals. hey wait, i wanna thank a whole lot of people!
thankyou momma for finally buying some stuff we need thankyou nenek for accompanying us and loving me thankyou ryian for hitting me in th nose twice, then blowing me kisses thankyou chacha for prep-talking with me, and last but not least, thankyou afi for making me have a hard time sleeping peacefully tonight. i cant waaaaaaaaaaaait to see you tomorrow.
eh wait, i'm seeeeing you laterrrr, TODAY. gosh, okay i gotta go sleeep. (i'll really, really try) chiaozszsz.
not everything is like what it seems, never be too sure of the smiles you're witnessing
taken from nani's blog, so credits to my precious(:
i swear to god i felt so rotten and outdated th moment i woke up from my beauty sleep this morning. oops, nah. afternoon i meant. haha. i dontknow why but it's natural for me to be feeling that way whenever i wake up superrrrrrrrr late, like today for instance, at a pathetic 1:30 pm -.- sheesh shame on me. and surprisingly, i still have the guts to blog it out, haha okay whatever. bytheway! hello cupcakes(:
i smiled almost th whole time when i hopped into nani's blog and read her post about our latest outing with th girls on 3rd dec just minutes ago. haha, i dontknow but i just find th way she combines our name, her expression and everything, cute(: okayokay let's move it.
fasting today, and i guess both momma and me were oblivious to th time this morning as we didn't wake up for our pre-dawn meal ): it's okay though, just wondering what are we gonna break fast later, hehe(:
anyway heard that th little adorable boy, ryian anaque is over at grandmomma's place(: i miss that small guy! i miss his scrunched up face when he wants t look outside th window and i pretended to ignore him. i miss how he'll immitate his own picture in my cell when he looks at it. and somehow, this little guy reminds me of a big guy! haha, yessss. that's you, pipi. do you know how much i miss you? haha ofcourse you dont. but hey, just rememmmmmber, that no matter how far you are, this heart is always, and will always be screaming for you. i love you(: