hearing your voice makes me feel like you're right beside me, even though you're literally miles away(; your three calls today makes your absence alil' more easier to cope with. infact, alot more easier(; but gees, if given a choice to have you going away again, i dontttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt wanttttttttt it. it sucks not to irritate you ): and ofcourse, miss you and sulk with you and imagine with you and being an echo whenever you sing(; sunset supermannnnnnnnnnnnnn (echo: supermannnnnnnnnnnn)
it's 1:27 am onthclock, which means you'll be home soooooooooon in a few hours time! well actually, 12 to 13 hours to be exact ): haish. but its okay. hahaha i find it funny how i'll miss you and need you more when you're one day away from me, compared to 3 days. but whatever it is, you'll be backbackback soonsoonsoon! FARDZ, they're comingggg back! i bet you're smilingsmilingsmiling uh(:
god, why am i feeling hyper when i'm sleepy :/ yaaaaawns* someone will be in beauty sleep this very moment for sure(; i miss you big boy, you know i truly do.
sometimes, you'll just miss those special moments again. wishing it's here, wishing it's happening again right this very moment when you think of it, and wishing the special person you shared these moments with, is right here beside you.
well i dont know about you guys, but when typing every word of the above, only one person manage to creep into my heart and make make me smile with a tear lingering at the corner of my eye(;
haish. you'll be gone during the weekends over the causeway. and i'll be all alone ); something tells me that religious lessons this coming sunday will be a pain in the butt. urgh, this camp thinggy is gettin' on my nerves. and who will i rant to if i need someone's shoulders? );
haish. wake up love, wake up from your beauty sleep ): i miss you, already.
no matter how far, no matter how near, love between us
never fade. The tides may be high and low but we'll hang on the sailing ship till we find an island, just for us. even the night is full of fire , even the day is full of ice love between us never fade.
i might not be the best, but the only best for you i'll take care of your fragile heart, no one can ever have a slight touch . it is just for me.
no matter how long, no matter how deep the pain is my love for you is still like the time when i first met you keep on burning , keep on shining, keep on glowing till the end of time
last sunday when i went to religious lessons, hilwan told me about this particular lady who went to Paris alone. i was intrigued, and i really am in awe of her. well, i'm not saying that i'm planning to do that, but still, the thought of being independent and prepared to see the beauty of the world alone without having a friend to share the excitement, kinda impressed me truly.
as i type this out, a scene or rather a picture of a place keeps repeating itself in my head. and yes, if given a chance, a safe transport to and fro, a week off from everything, and some food to spare, i would love to go to bintan resort's beach. leave me there, and i'll just pamper myself with nature, allow nature to appreciate me, and let nature fill up my heart.
cause right now, the empty feeling is killing me softly.
sometimes, things just get entangled by itself. and then you try to pull one string away, hoping you'll find a way out. but the next thing you know? that move just made the whole mess tighter.
and the next thing you realise? you found out you're a failure in soothing hearts,
but a champ in breaking them. oh, and don't forget the tears. it's like a topping on a beauty cake.
sometimes, the state of my room depicts what kind of state my mind is in. haha, and now my room's messssssed up. hahaha. but well, managed to do some clearing up just now, so it's better now! hehe. will finnish th rest tomorrow morning, and my room will be spick and span once again, haha i hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
anyway! nothing much for today i guess. well lemme just update on this week alright. on monday and tuesday, had OPS meeting with th rest of my journalist members together with our mentor. syahidah couldn't make it, so it's just hilwan. anyway if you're wondering what OPS means.. erm, i'm not really sure myself, hahahaha. okay sorry. but anyway! it was kinda fun and the besttttt thing was, i get to handle a DSLR and that is freaking cool for a person who doesn't own one, haha. anyway, came across afew awesome little shops which sells clothes and etc etc along arab streeet i think. haha it's dope i tell you. farahaqila, me and th other girls just went gaga over them. th guys just mind their own business and stood outside.. taking photos i guess? hahaha okay i dontknow, or perhaps i forgot. but whatever it is, i am sure to bring my girls there one day, and i'll even drag love to that place one fine fine day, insyallah(:
speaking of love, i bet he's souuuundddd asleep now(: YAY! tomorrow's a fridayyyyyy. which means it'll be th weekends soon and my love don't have to wake up earlyearlyearly in th morning and leave me a text message before leaving for schoooooool. even though he'll be going to johore or somewhere this saturday, and i'll be packed with grandmomma's birthday celebration with th whole of my maternal family on sunday, i bet everything's gonna work out just fine, insyallah(; there's no doubt i'm gonna miss you like never before, and will be longing for you so much, dear.
oh, before i sleep tonight, i'm gonna plug in my earpiece and listen to our recorded conversations onthfone, smile t myself about it, drift off to sleep, and meet you at th other side of this world. a world where th only living thing that exist, is th two of us(: i love you.
i give my heart cause nothing can compare in this world to you.
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even though it's past midnight when this is being written, i just wanna let you know that whatever i've promised, won't be forgotten. cause i love you. and i want you to know, that you really are the best for me. not because you want me to say, not because i'm afraid i'll ruin your day. but it's because of YOU, who have managed to slip silently into my heart and make me feel this way. i love you, muhdkhalilafifi.