bits and pieces

once upon a time, we happened

2012-02-11T11:11:00.005+08:00

"on the first page of our chapter, the future seemed so bright"

subhanAllah.

2012-01-21T23:35:00.004+08:00

nazura ridzuan

sesungguhnya, pemergian ibu mu amat dirasakan
dalam jiwa kami, sayang. kekuatanmu, ketenangan
hatimu, ketabahanmu akan selalu dalam doaku.
al-Fatihah.

kekasihku

2011-12-08T22:58:00.003+08:00

this Angry Bird footwear is really doing me some justice.

it's making my feet real warm and comfy. worth my three bucks :)

tomorrow marks the end of Week One for my attachment
at KKH. the babies, are making my heart melt each second.
really. almost anything and everything they do tugs my heart
in a warm, gentle way. insyallah, may the remaining days go
smoothly. amin amin amin.

Day Three of sleeping on the couch tonight,

wish me lotsa luck trying to get an undisturbed
sleep. aliff's off for Thailand three days ago for two
weeks. insyallah, may he go and come back safely.
amin! alright hamburgers, chika gotta fly to lalalalaland.
salam a'laik :)

NinsyF

kekosongan

2011-11-21T20:35:00.002+08:00

apa yang ada hanyalah, kehidupan.

alhamdulillah

2011-11-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah :)

week 6 now. common test's on week 7.
am i ready? sighs. come on, you should
know better. it's alwaaaaaays been the
same problem over and over again.
now this, is depresssssssingggggggggg.

~

happy birthday darling, this might be some cheesy crap.
but one thing's for sure, you meant so much. you're in my
prayers. *hugs* finally legal, puteri nadiah.
<3

NinsyF

gotten

2011-11-08T00:18:00.002+08:00

i've been saving these last words for one last miracle.
but now, i'm not sure - Adam Levine

NinsyF

blackened

2011-11-07T02:36:00.005+08:00

bunga yang layu

2.37 am right now.
had a dose for tonight. but to my amazement, it doesn't
really feel like a dose anymore. alhamdulillah syukur :)
finally this heart and brain and mind and soul gets it.
^^

~

alhamdulillah, i'm so very grateful tmr's a holiday.
i have a plan in mind, but i doubt it'll work judging from
the time right now. but ah, then again you never know
it might just turn out good and productive. we'll see.

~

just to let out how i feel, i really missed Ramadhan.
i missed the whole atmosphere where a moment of
space and peace could be attained just by shutting the
eyes and saying a little prayer. the end of Ramadhan made
me lost touch with a special part of me. that part of me where
i'll always hope to be. a better person.

close enough to start a war

NinsF

someone like you

2011-11-05T18:39:00.003+08:00

old friend, why you so shy?
ain't like you to hold it back.
or hide from the light.

i hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited.
but i, couldn't stay away i couldn't fight it
and i hoped you'd see my face
and that you'd be reminded that for me,
it isn't over.

~

selamat hari raya haji everyone, much love.

don't forget me i beg.

NinsyF

back to the old times

2011-11-02T21:16:00.002+08:00

this close

NS3 tutorial, Pharmaco test (which i've yet to take due to
Mdm S postponing it again and again) and ELAHA debatezzz
tomorrrrrrrrrrrow.

10.29 pm, and i'm still here. carik nahas sendiri kan? tsk.

but the way you play your game ain't fair

NinsyF

overthinking it

2011-11-02T00:21:00.003+08:00

just when i thought i was fighting it good, a conversation was
all it takes to tug my heart alil more and got the wall i've built
tumbling down, laughing at it's own vain attempts. oh well.
that's just how life roll i guesssssss.

it's 12.24 am now, i'm having a 8 am lecture tmr and i've
yet to refresh and study for pharmaco test tmrrrrrrrr :/
just got back from 1.01 alil while ago. alhamdulillah, 1.01 was alright!
gonna have to attend 1.02 without Hfz this time round :/
but it's okayyyyyyyyy, imma learn to stay calm and collected ^^

~

at a point of time today, i felt my heart lifted up. twice.
first was when a different feeling came knocking on my
door, proving me that the numbness i believed i was immuned
to, wasn't at all stagnant. #alhamdulillah

and second, was a brief call.
thank you.

you're likka indian summer in the middle of a winter

NinsyF

sunshine

2011-10-30T23:25:00.002+08:00

everything is gonna be alright, just hold on tight.
i'll make it through the night.

pulling through

2011-10-26T13:36:00.004+08:00

favourite heartbreaker

he's sickkkkkkkkk. chacha texted me saying he's been
vomitting and is having a temperature :/ tsk my poor boy.
insyallah, will go see him and grandmomma if i'm able to
complete my pile of work ): so manyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

yes, i know i shouldn' even be here but i just can't find
th drive to start on my work. kkkkkkay 5 minutes.

~

happy deepavali to all! thank you all, really. cause this
festive occasion means a public holiday which i betttttt
upon my coloured socks, is what everybody needs.
yesssss, need.

~

Adiratna's performance tomorrow!
NS3 and Pharm class test tomorrow too :/
insyallah, it'd all go smoothly.
amin amin amin amin.

most relationships seem, so transitory

- natasha bedingfield

NinsyF

everything's gonna be alright

2011-10-23T15:04:00.004+08:00

see that smile there? yeap.

i can be the biggest hypocrite, ever.
and i'm blessed to be born this way.
cause that's the painful secret that's
been keeping me going when life tugs
me down.

~

i stumbled upon someone's tumblr and i saw smth which
i can't help but pretty much smile and agree on.

"the best relationship is when you both know of the
love you have, but still remain friends"
#viatumblr

makes sense, doesn't it?

NinsyF

kasih, mengapa membisu?

2011-10-20T20:42:00.005+08:00

meilleur ami

fourth day of school and i'm already killing my brain cells by
stressing over assignments, group works, individual task,
and class tests bombarded to us by the ever so thoughtful
lecturers. 2 class tests are already waiting for us diligently
next week. pharm and NS3. welcome gift much.
think my weekends are gonna be burnt );

hey you, you're everywhere. whenever i turn, it's either
someone with the same built, the same hairstyle, similar
height, or colour tone close to yours. how are you?
i really wonder

tuhanku, pintumu ku ketuk. aku tak bisa berpaling.

NinsyF

numb

2011-10-18T20:35:00.005+08:00

i didn't expect anyone to understand me, cause i don't even understand myself at times.

but i figured, what sits firmly in this heart is just.. numbness. th numb's that been

built over a period of time. maybe that's why i'm not reacting to what's around me.

it's not that i don't care, i really do. but i guess, it's just.. nothing.

had a short talk with Z before th first lecture yesterday. listening to certain things

he said, what he heard from her, was just... painful. it tears me down inside knowing

what should've been between us, was actually shared. Z shouldn't know anything of that

sort. cause it simply meant nothing. i trusted you. now impressions have been made,

feelings turn bitter, and the silence still resume. but then again what power have i got?

sadly, nil.

i can literally feel the acid right up my throat whenever i burp now.

day 1 of D started yesterday. wasn't exactly an epic failure, but i ended

up throwing out whatever i've input into my stomach right after meeting with Adiratna.

urgh, i swear i felt likka looser and powerless over how my body reacted.

hah, oh well. it's been some time i guess. was thankful yet so touched to see a soul

standing at the door of the restroom with my bag right beside, when th rest of them

already took off. alhamdulillah, thanks ida ^^

school's been alright i guess. too soon to comment, but nevertheless i'm still thankful

to th souls around me. i know it means nothing to them, but th distractions are working.

hopefully.

NinsyF

lost

2011-10-15T02:59:00.002+08:00

& i, will always remember.

still on my mind

2011-10-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

dose-d for th night!
lasttttttt day of attachment in abit~
AM shift, then imma free birdddddddddddddd.
alhamdulillah. may everything go just fine and smoothly,
insyallah.

~

have a plan in mind for that princess. might seem ambitious
but imma try my luck. insyallah, we'll see how it goes ^^
my stomach's growling at this hour. aliff pretty much owes
me some french fries. and he missed my calls, thrice. not funny man.

~

truth is, i'm still missing you.
and i wonder how you are on the other side.

you're in my prayers, always. your strength, your
patience, your endurance, and your faith.
insyallah, amin amin amin amin.

aku cinta, aku rindu

NinsyF

it's on

2011-10-04T01:05:00.003+08:00

and i wonder where you are, and i wonder what you do.
are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
tell me how to win your heart, for i haven't got a clue.
but let me start by saying, i love you.

~

4 more days and attachments will be over. alhamdulillah, i've
come this far now. may the upcoming days be a breeze, insyallah.

had my dose for the night, but i guess it wasn't really... worth it
cause i found myself feeling pretty shitty at the end of it all.
whatever it is, it's just calming to have performed my prayers.
unlike the past nights where i was too tired to even lift a finger.
alhamdulillah.

i, deserve a retreat to pamper myself after these hectic weeks.
insyallah, the day will soon come. as for now, imma do my thing
and just roll.

~

i miss you.

dikala hati digamit kenangan berlagu rindu

NinsyF

you lost

2011-09-21T23:24:00.002+08:00

when i grow up and have a family of my own, imma tell my lil' princess
all about you. every single thing, right from what we'd do to what you'd
say that puts a smile to my face. i'll whisper in her ears not to tell her
dad. i'll make her promise it's our little secret. when she's a teen, i'll show
her where our moments happened. where it all started. and when she tells
me her first story about a bestfriend, imma smile at her angelic face, look
into her eyes, take a deep breath, and allow her to relieve my moments.

the moments where we, happened.

you can't go back and manipulate things to the way you
wanted them to be - #Blackalogy

NinsyF

word of the week? ego.

2011-09-20T23:40:00.005+08:00

masking everything inside, you won't sense a thing

few years back, this was exactly what we were doing.
this. but it's... just not the same anymore. smth's missing.

~

tumblr is just awesome. quotes, sayings, pictures, random
scripts from movies... almost anything and everyth one
can relate to. it's really so very tempting to activate an
account right nowwwwwww but ah it'd be a chore to start
from scratch. so i'll just stay loyal to blogger ^^

~

sighs~
whatever i'm feeling right now, is just not a breeze. definitely not one
i can get through easy, trust me. especially when you've left
traces all over. tsk. this is stupid. how do i let you know that?
it's reaaaaaaal stupid and it's driving me nuts. yes, i'm admitting
smth. you've gotta learn to read between my lines. you're...
you've just made me feel like i've lost a part of myself, you fool.
yes, that's how much you meant to me as a friend. urgh. you
can be an idiot at times. once again, how do i let you know that?

trynna appear strong, but deep down at the weakest. not a fan
of complications, but this is exactly what it is.
cause imma Type B.

awan kekasih sebenar mu sayang~

NinsyF

2011-09-18T04:37:00.003+08:00

Adiratna

04.39 AM and i'm wide awake. Feels so good to be talking
alone here once again.
(:

Had Hari Raya performance at Dover with ze girls earlier today.
Oh well, what can i say? It's been some time since we've all came
together and just laugh over the littlest thing, which makes it all
worthwhile. Our personal favourite was ofcourse, picture session ^^

~

Had the usual dose i've been having the past few weeks tonight.
Feels so wrong yet it feels so right :/ Urgh, shall let it pass.
Time check, 04.48 AM. Yes, at the rate i'm going, i'm fully
aware that these dark circles ain't going nowhere.
It's okay! I guess :/

~

Quick update on life, results are out and i'm pretty much
done and over with semester 2.1! I SURVIVED, ALHAMDULILLAH.
I can kiss NS1 goodbye and rock semester 2.2, insyallah.
Amin amin amin amin.

Yawnz. Shall hit the sack for now, chiaoz cupcakes.

I didn't meant to fall in love with you~

NinsyF

2011-09-10T16:39:00.002+08:00

grab somebody sexaye tell them heyyyyyyyy ~
let's do it tonight.

NinsF

2011-08-29T00:52:00.002+08:00

as time passes you by, you learn to look around and learn a thing or two.
studying the people around you, studying the situations you land yourself in.
the scariest part is, when you start comparing what's new, and what's been
happening all your life. including the person closest to you all these while.
you start to realize how they want different things. different from what you do.

that's not really scary just yet. you know what's th worst?

when you start to doubt.

confessions of a broken heart

NinsF.

is it me or are you just masking things?

2011-07-11T01:11:00.002+08:00

Adele- Someone Like You

oh Allah, it's been some time i've blogged my hearts out.
i miss talking t practically no one. insyAllah, if time allows
i'll be back here real soon. t share t th passing wind th story
of my life.

salam ala'ik.
NinsyF

fats and bulges.

2011-01-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

sharifah farahlina

ouchhhhhh my eyes are straining itself. hello world!
it feels so good to be talking to myself 0nce more. hehe.

yesterday's 3 and a half hours of netball was great.
few hours later when i could clearly feel the intense pain
and cramps here and there, it was blissful. sweet satisfaction.

oh! and th moon last night was just.. beautiful. it was sooo round,
so clear, so near, so luscious, so full. so.. gahhhhhh. yeah thats it.
(:

hmmm a quick update. having a planner with me is so much more
convenient, i swear. i'm gonna be a more responsible young woman.
(let's hope) hehe. schedule's gonna be more and more hectic. ESP MARCH.
wow. as much as i love th view of my March's schedule on my planner,
(cause it makes me look so busy and hectic), i'm just afraid i'll burst anytime
soon ): next attachment is gonna be at NUH, still. second batch -.-
DO NOT let me start on how i was supposed to go during th first batch ...

urgh i badly need a new pair of shoes. yawns*
shall continue tidying up my room. chiaozx pretty babies.

muhdkhalilafifi's, nins.

it's all about you.

2010-12-08T23:20:00.002+08:00

rest of my life ~
can't help feeling like i'm not the one. sometimes, just sometimes. you gotta let your heart control the mind.

ninsyfarahlina.

toodles litte poodles

2010-10-03T17:00:00.001+08:00

wow. i'm flying off in a few hours time. i still can't seem to
digest that into my head. staring at the navy coloured packed
luggage just give me th chills. wow. i am flying off today.

i'm gonna miss my momma. and everyone in th picture above.
i'm gonna miss my bloods ): 2 weeeeeks baby. 2 weeks is something :/
yes yes, i'll miss you too. whoever is reading this.
especially YOU, love. i'm gonna miss you like there's no tomorrow.
you know i will ;)

*imaginary hugs to everyone*
i HOPE no one cries later at th airport. cause it's just gonna
make me cry and when i cry, it's ugly haha. wow. nina's flying
off hmm. not bad, girl. first time in seventeen years. go nina.

alright then, i shall bid goodbye to everyone and anyone.
pray for my safety back and forth ;) i'm gonna miss so many
many many many people. takecaire, i love you Muhd Khalil Afifi.
you takecaire boy. study hard, mug well. and remember to read
my pre-wrritten 2 weeks letter. ONE day at A time, okay? ;)

hugs and kisses, Singapore. India, let's rock.

let's take one step at a time, there's no need to rush

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

september blues

2010-09-21T22:17:00.004+08:00

attttttttachmentttttttttts now. hectic hectic hectic schedule.
3 weeks of attachment. 2 different shifts. training for hari raya
performance in between. 1 day of rest day. then flyyyyyy~
off to india for two weeks.

trust me, i'm trying to sync everything in my brain.
chiaozxz pretty babies.

~ain't no sunshine when she's gone~

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyf.

fading hope

2010-09-14T18:52:00.002+08:00

can't help myself

no one told me to be strong. no one told me things are gonna get
tough. it just happens, whether you're ready or not. how fair life can get (;

sometimes i just wish whatever that comes out from me, is all the right
things. all the right words. which is gonna bring all the right response
and delightful feelings. and etcetera. things and words that can make
you feel loved again. make you feel like this was 2 years ago, back when
things just started. when the excitement in your heart is driving your tummy
nuts. sighs. i'm sorry i've failed in doing so once more. and again and again.

but i'm still loving you.

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyf.

cintaku

2010-09-02T01:40:00.004+08:00

exaaaaaaaaaaaamszxzxzxz. first paper, FON tomorrow.
am i prepared? turthfully, im like 60% ready, i dont know
where th other 40 went ): omg im not supposed to be here.
1:41AM now, and i have a 9AM paper awaiting me at NgeeAnn
Poly's Convention Centre. eh, CC? my emceeeeee moments :)

okay okay, shall hit my notes. revise care plan, memorise here
and there. try answering MEL's worksheet. and hit th sack.
chiaozxzx pretty babies.

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsf.

29th.

2010-08-29T23:59:00.001+08:00

WANTED.

tall. dark. handsome. smart. round eyes. gorgeous hair.
sweetness stings like diabetes. charming. original. undeniably
attractive aura. and of course, rockin' \m/

you're unforgettable. everything one could ask for :)
it's been 2 years and 7 months now. thankyou, for everything.
remember what i once told you,

love is what i have, happiness is what i'm blessed with.
success is what i aim for, and future is where i longed to be.

i love you afi.

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyfarahlina.

di langit nan indah.

2010-08-29T04:12:00.004+08:00

chemical reactions

appearantly Li watched the movie, Sepi, too. thought it's some underground
movie or something. sighs i miss love. like so much. he just returned from
johore. awesome. monday's gonna be payback time. muahahahaha~
alright i'm freaking out. having mad at 8am later. time check, 4:37am and i
have yet to sleep. yawns. will have my pre-dawn
meal now. nites cupcakes. eh no, g'morning :)

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyfarahlina.

fiftyfive times.

2010-08-22T13:24:00.002+08:00

intai seri madu bunga

life's up and down up and down. events after events have been happening
and i have yet to update my blog. hahaha thank facebook for everything.

let's see, what have we missed.

-my birthday :)
- celebration of august babies with Paduka&Adiratna
-Farah Anna's Engagement
- went out with love + choc day at MaxBrenner'sChocBar
- it's fasting month already
- preparations for HS DAY as an Emcee
- preparations for HS DAY; Adiratna&Paduka as opening performance
- iftar with Paduka&Adiratna
- iftar with KAKAKAE
- iftar with some of WWSS peeps

yeap, that's about it i guess. facebook's been a good witness,
receiving all the picture tags and everything. and even video
of our performance during HS DAY hehehe.

ohhhhhh sighs.
things are different here and there. next next week is exammms.
so you'll have one week to have your intensive study, nina.
oh, speaking of nina. i have come to a point where i realised i
have quite a few names. i have people all over the place calling
me Farah here, Nina there. some still calls me Sharifah ;)
i even have one who calls me Ninsy -.- oh well, it's me anyway.

it feels good to be back talking to myself once again.
feels like things which i haven't been able to mention to
the world is allowed to mentioned here.

sighs. i miss love. i wanna see love.
i wanna breakfast with love and just be with love.
where are you love?

'don't rush in love, cause even in fairytales, the happy ending
is at the very last page'
-dek's status

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyfarahlina.

life-avable.

2010-08-04T00:10:00.003+08:00

it's 12:10 am nowwwwww my eyes are screaming silently i'm sleepy could feel
th 2kg eyebags and dark ring circles clutching every inch and corner of my eyes
not wanting to let go ahhhhhhhhhhhh hey wait i don't even know what i'm doing
here haha freak oh my what's life without all the fullstop comma and everything
man hahaha i wonder okay shall answer love's call and sing nonsensical stuff to him
then then then then then go sleep kay bye chiaozxzx

muhdkhalilafifi's ninsyf.
(:

need you now.

2010-07-08T22:36:00.002+08:00

ryian anaque

how i wish i could hold this lil' monster in my hands
right now and listen to his, "tatak nina" here and there.
ahhhhhh i miss this little dinasour.

was quite in a mood to finish up my assignments
earlier. but somehow i lost that...spirit i guess.
it's alright. will settle it tomorrow morning.
insyAllah.

said i wouldn't call, but i lost all control and i need you now.

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

the next 29th.

2010-06-29T08:28:00.002+08:00

pictures and some memories, will have to help me through.

some search, never finding a way. before long they waste away.
i found you, something told me to stay. i gave in, to selfish ways.
now i need someone to hold, when hope begins to fade.
dear god, the only thing i ask of you is to hold him(her) when i'm
not around, when i'm much too far away.
- Avenged Sevenfold

i've been waking up from sleep with the thought of someone
in mind for 2 years and 5 months now(; yes, i'll admit nothing
goes on as perfectly as how one planned it to be, or how one
wishes it would be. but for this love we have, we know we'll
always be making the best out of it.
i love you.

diantara lembut dan halus, engkau bisikkan sesuatu.

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

sweetness.

2010-06-15T20:20:00.003+08:00

the last practice for th night before th BIG DAY(:

puteri nadiah, she's BIE(:

the STOP-hot pose.

birthday surprise for DEKKK(:

ADIRATNA, with love. (COMP DAY)

thanks for the time spent and teachings, yan.

DEKKKK, NANIE.
juara karut.

pink colourrr know my eyes hehe. ohya, and that's nadiah again.

basically th wholeeee load of photos have done much of th talking.
so, thats Adiratna's preparations for Piala Serumpun for you(:
vidoe on our performance could be found on facebook. but urgh.
skip the first few seconds please. i totally screw my juara solo part );
can never forget how dissssapointed i felt when i couldn't grab hold
of that precious moment. urgh ); but thanks to everyone, yes. everyone.
thanks to everyone, especially my handsome prince, rockin' seniors,
and awesome instructors for th support before and after. even after
i screwwwww my part ); okayokay get over it girl.
(cannnoooooooooooooooot)

common tests are over! it was alright i guess.
currently almost everyyyone is having their 2 weeks break.
while me on th other hand, is having attachhhhmenttts ):
but its okay i guess, once the second batch goes for attachment,
we're gonna shake our legs and hands and everything else that
could be shake. hehehehe. i wanna meeet all my girls ):
esp nurhannani nurnadhirah nuruljannah nursyafiqah and all ):
also munifah and dhamirah ):

urgh, time oh time.

gonna head to th moviesssss one of these nights with loveeee.
still having a rough time picking one. haha. torn between afew yknow ):
ah but whatever, that could be settled laterrrrr. boy am i excitedddzx.
cant wait cant wait cant wait.

now i shall go iron my uniform, do whatever i'm suppose to,
give love a call, text ROSE RUBEN EUGENE KAMILAH.
; th attachment people.
and maybe head to sleep early tonight.
yes, early. somebody's gonna be a nurse someday.
winkwink*

i know you suffer, but i dontwant you to hide.

chaiozxz pretty babies.

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

come home soon baby.

2010-05-30T00:28:00.003+08:00

hieeeee world. today is a fat day! ate, slept, tv, laptop, iTouch,
prayers, ate, ate, ate, ate, ate, ate, ate, ate, ate.
haha okay i was exaggerating on th eating part. but i sure do
feel fat right now ): didn't even glance at my notes for today.
told myself today would be a rest day, after all those late nights
from dikirbarat and etc, i really do need a break.

it's been what, two weeks since i've seen and carried and played
with ryian anaque. already missing his, "please tatak nina, loh tatak nina"
(please kakak nina, love kakak nina) mummy told momma he's learning to
talk more and more now. ahhh how cute(:

but th missings however can't beat my missings for someone(;
someone's having an awesome time at KL right now, i'm sooooo jealous.
everyone's on a holiday but not me ): hahaha. but i'm just glad love's having
a break now while he can, since he's facing his important papers this year.
quick, come home soon love ;/ its okay, just ONEEE more day to go ..

speaking of holidays, i dont know whether th girls, siti shahirah and chris is
out for a holiday this long weeekend. hmm maybe maybe. im missing their
laughters and silly jokes already man!

met girlfy, abang's fioncee yesterday. headed to town together with momma.
after agesssss not updating my wardrobe, i finally did yesterday. bought a few
tops from my one and only Cotton On, and a pair of jeans. hell yeah, FINALLY
bought a pair of jeans. alhamdulillah, rezeki(:
yesterday was a girls day out i guess. winkwink*

shall have that day out with siti shah chris one of th days during holidays.
and also a study date with love.
and a date with munie for her birthday prezzie.
and also with mera to catch up and all.
and also my old peeps to finally meet again and prep talk.

okay i shall cucumber my eyes now, do my prayers, and sleep.
chiaozxzx pretty babies.

jolene, jolene, jolene jolene.

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

and, you, em, bee.

2010-05-15T22:07:00.002+08:00

currently ditching my own notes to help my eldest brother in his assignment -.-
it's about some Negotiations crap. hey no, it's not really crap you know. but still.. -.-
he promised if i manage to finnish it by tonight, he'll top up my prepaid. muahaha,
awesome much since i'm currently broke, heh.

just wishing i didn't have my religious class exams tomorrow morning ):
if that were to happen, i would have been at johore with someone ):
haish.

i. miss. you. sometimes these common words which we use every single
day might mean nothing no more. cause th feelings would built in your heart,
injecting some numbness into it. just look at me now, i'm used to it.

and one fine thing i realised. bad things would always be announced.
whatever happened to th good and sweet ones? dead and gone.

i've been hoping for this moment for too long.

muhdkhalilafifi's
NinsyF.

schhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

2010-05-14T16:00:00.003+08:00

fridayyyyys are happppppy days as my classes end at freaking
twelveeeee pm(: plus today, Miss Jo was super nice to let us
off 20minutes earlier. eventhough she can be a hell of a chilli padi
sometimes, but she's still nice i guess, winks*

dikir is love, but ending super late is not ):
not only do i want to study, i also wanna batheee cause i can't
stand one wholeeee day being in sch and coming home feeling
unfreshed and unsanitised, plus i don't want too much staphylococcus
aureus on me, hahahha. sheesh, look who's talking uh. hehe(:

love's now out with th guys having lunch or smth. tsk, i also
want lunch, i'm hungry you knowwwwww ): and i miss that kuku
so much. plus i'm broke right now and i have yet to find a way
to beg aliff or abang to top up my fone for me (hehe)
which means i can't reply a single text messssage ): tskkkkk.
i miss you i miss you i miss you ):

time spent listening to lectures are fine,
even bettttter when it's break time, even even even better if i'm
laughing my butts out with my girls, but still i can't deny th
fact how i'll always heave a sigh of relieve once i'm out of campus.
activities in campus is making me fatigue ):

right, shall stop crapping and do my prayers. oh and before i go,
these are some pictures taken discretely during Miss Jo's lesson.
hehehe. now do i realise i'm easily distracted. study the pictures.

this was when i realize siti was posing for a picture, that's
when i started smiling like an idiot at th back ...

and then i stood up and randomly showed my butterfly...
and i'm ready for more.

tsktsktsk, nina nina. farah, farah.
hehe, chiaozx pretty babies.

muhdkhalilafifi's,
NinsyF.

love.

2010-05-09T23:38:00.000+08:00

mama, i love you.

the only exception.

2010-05-04T17:50:00.003+08:00

if you're not the one.

tuesssdaaaay blues.
today was th usuals, had tons of laughter with siti shahirah and christiana.
when a group of ladies come together, there really is no need to have any man
around. ofcourse, except someone. hehe. cause somehow, he'll alwaaaays be
included in my conversation with th girls. there'll always be something to talk
or mention about. well, what to do? ~ you.. are, the only exception...~
haha okay whatever. it was awesome talking in ryian anaque's language
and mocking typical singaporeans way of speaking. winkwink* (:

went to my first dikirbarat training yesterday. awesome. but too bad
i came home in pain, enduring my bad bad bad headache ):

anywoots.
it was a reallyyyyyyy scorching afternoon today and i just had to
allow myself to a cone of icecream. not good for my diet. but i trust
MrBean's icecream to be less sinful, hehehe.

currently singing about my day here while waiting for my charming
prince to wake up from his evening nap. alrighty then, gonna have
longgg warmmm nice comfortable germ-free nice scent bathe.
chiaozx pretty babies.

anyone can make me smile.
anyone can make me cry.
but no one, can make me smile with tears in my eyes like you do.
i love you.

muhdkhalilafifi's,
NinsyFarahlina.

i can't quite figure out.

2010-05-01T08:50:00.004+08:00

confused.

there was once a time where it's easy to locate signs
to show me th right path to th right place. it was easier
back then. but now, everything's different. everyone's
changing. their heads are spinning. their mind's in a daze.
their eyes go fiery, clouding all th pain and weakness.
their words start changing, evil coming out. hearts being
poked profusely. they keep hoping. hoping for th light they
never see. or were they blinded by their own darkness?

but it's okay. cause i'm to blame.

all of th things i want to say just aren't coming out right

ninsf.

back with a flash.

2010-04-28T20:52:00.003+08:00

siti shahirah cristiana.

first week of school was both scary, weird and awkward at first.
but as time goes and as we went to lectures and tutorials together,
we clique that very instant. felt so grateful to be with th group of girls.
and yes ofcourse, not forgetting nadiah. th first everrrr girl whom i know
is in nursing, through NPSU FOC. it feels even more comfortable and
peace with her. so to wrap my first week of school up, i guess it was fun
and interesting(:

met munie last sunday to celebrate her belated birthday, took tons of
pictures which i have yet to lay hands on. met love th day before, for a
short lunch(:

well oh well, it's a wednesday. thursday's coming sooooon.
fast ain't it? we get so packed up in life, following th flow with
how things are, till sometimes, we forget to allow ourselves
to breathe. how sad hmm.

i love you. i want you to stay strong, if i can try to cope and live
with how things are, why can't you. we're not on th same page.
we have to be. we have t be hand in hand to go through this together.
cause what's been happening, is just th holding of hands, and the fall
of it.

whatever it is, i'm still loving you.

muhkhalilafifi's
NinsyFarahlina.

2010-04-14T00:22:00.002+08:00

HS foc camp tomorrow and i'm kinda nervous and excited.
it's 12:24 am right now and im still here, wondering why in th
world am i still here. playing with ryian was awesome.
but th highlight of th day?

is you.

listening to your tone of voice changing to a sweeter mode
just turn my upside down smile, upside down. (uh?)
ahh, you know i know. i love you, muhdkhalilafifi.

hold my hand, let's break away

muhdkhalilafifi's,
ninsyfarahlina.

pretty woman.

2010-04-12T00:51:00.004+08:00

HERMES sub HERSHEYS, with love.

sometimes when stuff happens, it scares me alittle.
but when stuff happens and i find it hard to open up,
that scares me alot.

currently thinking of a perfect way to surprise munie.
currrently thinking how nuruldhamirah is doing.
currently thinking how th Induction Programme at NP tmr will go.
currently waiting for love to finnish watching his soccer.
currently just wondering, questioning, and waiting what's about to happen next.

ryian anaque is the second cutest littlest thing on earth.
make a guess who's the first. chiaoz baby.

will you cry if i fly away?

muhdkhalilafifi's
ninsyfarahlina.

dots.

2010-04-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

i miss blogging. tons to blog about, bunayya camp, NPSU FOC camp, adorable moments
with ryian anaque, bittersweet happenings with muhdkhalilafifi, beautiful pain caused by
your own blood, crazy conversations with cha, munie who is back from her long holiday,
etc etc.

chaioz baby, with love
ninsy farahlina.

2010-03-26T12:50:00.002+08:00

i miss this gorgeous lady );

hmmmm, hey? yeah. hehe.. its me afi (:
well, she's far away for camp @ Ngee Ann Poly and i'm so missing her ):
i hope she's fine and Allah protect her . And later i need to participate
this cross country and yeah, i'm exhausted for it. i dont know, this few
days , i felt so tired of everything . OH! i know .. love's so far away .
hehe i think thats the reason. She's gonna be back tomorrow and guess
what?? i'm off to KL tomorrow . WOW. one after another. so distant.

BUT, whatever it is, i knew this is a test for us.
and love, just know that you've been conquering my mind
since you step into my pale world. Hope you're fine there.
and... i love you (;

so distant , so far away.

sharifahfarahlina's,
afi.

vivo love.

2010-03-20T00:21:00.002+08:00

yesterday was all the nice, sweet, satisfying, and awesome things you can
ever think of, i swear. yesterday was just pure laughters, smiles, and teasings.
oh, and ofcourse. gorgeous faces, hehe.

headed to vivo, had our lunch, went window shopping, prep talked for awhile,
went t th rooftop to snap awesome, awesome pictures, and had our dessert
at Earle Swensensssss. yummm, it was awfully, deliciously sinful. yummmm.
i had fun, we had fun, we loved every part of yesterday, truly(: it was just
simple, sweet, and uncomplicated(:

i love you afi, thankyou for making it an awesome day for me. after such
a longggg time not seeing you, yesterday was perfect. and as usual, you looked
greaaaaaaaaaat and handsome in your leather jacket(: i love you.

muhkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2010-03-13T00:08:00.003+08:00

NINA, I MISS YOU !!!!

afi (:

where oh where?

2010-03-08T08:50:00.006+08:00

woooo it's monday! one reason to love monday is cause someone will be home
early from school! then i can chill and feel comfort at the knowledge of someone
being just one call away(:

bunayyacamp this weeeeeek, saturday till sunday.
and i'm surprised that i'm feelin' kinda nervous for it, heh :/ oh, and someone's
going to KL till monday ); haishhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

anyway i would like to let out a bold, red underlined question mark out here.
i just realised, some people have been living in this world with their eyes closed.
hahaha i literally smiled when i saw what someone tagged me(:

and i miss you, body and soul so strong till it takes my breath away

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2010-03-02T12:53:00.000+08:00

had a funny conversation with momma and aliff.

aliff: ma, i want to get married ah.
mama: huh, get married? got money anot in your bank?
me: hahahahaha. why suddenly?
aliff: dont know ah, i want baby ah. i want cutecute one.
mama: then like that tak payah ade majlis ke ape lah, just nikah teros, senang.
aliff: can adopt anot ah? i want boy.
nina: eh don't ah aliff. if can from your blood better. junior aliff!
aliff: eh ofcourse la, if it's from me then it'll be handsome and cute like me.
nina: roll eyes*
aliff: but i want to find a white skin girl ah. so atleast my baby the face
handsome like me, but fairer.
mama: if you fair not handsome lah liff.
aliff: nevermind ah, so atleast i know how i look like if i fair what.
nina: if girl confirm pretty like the aunty.
aliff: ahhhhhhh, see first ah.
-.-

i'm done with house choresssss~
oh wait, gonna have to scrub the kitchen toilet later, hehe.
then i'll refresh, chill, fold the clothes, chill again while waiting
for my handsome prince's call. this won't seem new but hey, i miss him.
come home sooooooon love, i'll be waiting(;

whether you think you can or you can't, you're right.
- henry ford

and yeah i agree. two choices, can or can't. so a reminder to myself
and to every breathing thing out here, whenever you're trying something
new, pick the right one. chiaoz.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

our 29th february(:

2010-03-01T00:01:00.000+08:00

in the eyes of the others, it's the first of march.
but in our hearts, it's the 29th february. that's NOT a day where someone
asked me, "will you be my girl?" it's actually the day where a stranger
waited for me outside the ladies restroom, and the first thing he asked
was? "nina, nina okay tak nie?"

we were total strangers, i swear we were. i just knew you as my bestfriend's
bestfriend, and nothing more. you weren't tryin' to take advantage of my
situation. you were more concerned of why those tears are lingering in my eyes.

and ever since that very second, we knew we're gonna be alright, gonna be great
friends, gonna be a great person to confide with, and ofcourse, the best person to love and
be loved. i just love the fact that our story is not the same as the other lovers. deep inside,
we just knew we would click. and yeah, look where we are now. 2 years, and still counting
baby(: insyallah, amin.

i love you muhdkhalilafifi, let's work and pray for this blissful blessing to last. chiaoz.

nins.

magic.

2010-02-27T00:04:00.004+08:00

"i feeeeeeeeel goooood, tenenenenenenet. soooo goood, soooo goood..."
hahaha okay i should probably stop. i'm feeling light and fresh(but smelly),
now that i've finallyyyyy manage to go for a short jog after a longgggg break.

god, love will kill me if he knows i went in th middle of th night. but chill baby!
i wasn't alone at all, so no worries(: before the jog, met my crazy crime partner,
eiqah(: i swear it's been some time since we've met, and i missed her crappings.
haha. accompanied her all th way to bedok to settle some of her things, then
headed to cityhall/marinasquare. went window shopping, and i swear i've got
my eyes on some cute dresses, jeans plus accessories. oh wait! not to mention,
adorable sneakers and hot hot heeeeels! eye twinkles*

and i don't know why, but i have a thing for undies nowadays. hahahaha.
well, i have a precise explanation though. seeing rool's collection of different
undies, makes me wanna have a variety of undies too! hahahaha winks*
call me crazy, it's in the blood baby!

and for the record, I MISS MUHDKHALILAFIFI.
he's gone to fico with a bunch of friends for a game of football.
from 10pm to 12am. tsk, i miss you already, make me crazier summore );
nevermindddd, you're ending real sooon and i'll wait(: anyway check this out..

in three words i can sum up everything about life ;
it goes on
- robert frost

at the age of seventeen, i can't say that i've known everything i need
to know about life, cause i'm aware that there's more to come. but for
now, i can't help but agree on th above's quote. so true, ain't it? stop
and pause for a moment, think of all those hard times you went through.
now, look where you are right now. it just shows.
so chins up, look forward, and rock anddddd roll baby \m/
chiaoz.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

chatterbox.

2010-02-24T21:35:00.003+08:00

it's been sometime since i've actually blog a proper post, haha. but oh well can't
blame the situation i guess, hehe. alrighty then, i shall bombard you with my updates!

15th feb, met my favourite someone!
it was short, sweet, simple yet euphoric. just us(: headed to his grandmomma's crib,
helped ourselves with finger lickin' gooood food and lingered around for some time.
we then headed to the movies, booked our tickets, and walked around searching for a
suitable gift for our good friend, irhas(: once we got it, chilled for awhile and snapped
a few pictures, then made our way to th theaters. i wanted to watch percyjackson!
but apparently someone wanted to watch valentinesday, so valentinesday it was(:
ended our day with a satisfied smile, then came back to reality to our bustling life.
i have to admit the moment he's outta sight, everything seemed normal and plain.
but his vibes are still around me everywhere(: oh well.

20th feb, met a bunch of friends ANDDD someone(:
celebrated irhas's belated birthday on that day. headed to marina for
bowling! but i have to admit the bowling alleys there aren't as smooth
as the ones at Chevrons :/ but heck, we had fun(: ended our games with
namie and irhas emerging as champions for the respective games, then
after some time, we went seperate ways. me and love lingered for a moment
or so at esplanade's riverside, then decided to have our usual drink at westmall's
coffeebean. my cell was sooooo peaceful that night. haha! apparently momma
went to watch santau with mell, papa, mummy and the whole lot of the others(:
but ofcourse, i gave momma a call telling her about my whereabouts and etc.
ended our blissful day with someone sending me right in front of my doorstep(:

gosh, what a long posttt. i bet you lambs are either dozing off, or
out of here already. oh well. i'm all alone at home and it's weird why i'm feeling
kinda chatty, haha. anywayy. watched american idol just now, and i have to admit
some of the ladies are really awesome. not to mention, drop-dead-gorgeous.
tsktsk, cool or what.

starting work tomorrow, haha i meant 'work'. hehe. nevermind, only love
knows. will go for a short jog after morning prayers, come back, cool down,
get my hands on the broom and mop, refresh and chillllllll.

personal note to self: follow your diet menu baby.

gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love
- albert einstein

as i smile, i agree that no matter how people think science can prove you
wrong, i truly believe this much is true. chiaoz.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

stuckup.

2010-02-23T00:50:00.001+08:00

this laptop's gettin' on my nerves, and it's a miracle i'm still waiting for it
to load, patiently haha. i bet love's sleeping soundly right this moment(;

it's 12:57 am right now. haha, so much for wanting to get my 8hours
of proper sleep -.-

sighs* i want someone so much right now. so much till it took me
an awkward silence to hint me that i have actually pushed that chance
away. god, why must feelings be insane and unreasonable at times?

tsk, foolish huh.

muhdkhalilafifi's, nins.

sighs

2010-02-13T00:51:00.004+08:00

sometimes, i just don't get it don't i
i'm confused, so confused
you're leading me this way, but i'll end up in that
you promised me that way, but i end up in this
in th end, it's me i upset. me i upset. not to mention, it's
this heart who scratched her head, thinking
whatthehell happened?

don't bother reading between the lines. just giving my heart some
space to breathe. space to breathe. just kill the pain, kill the pain.
i feel like saying this word, but it's illegal. urgh.

i thankgod i was able to be with munie for alittle while. she called for a moment
or so, and we chatted online for sometime. missed her. i like it when she draw
ugly but adorable sheeps. it made me smile. atleast i smiled(;

nins.

heroes.

2010-02-10T20:01:00.005+08:00

i can't help but take a picture of aliff lying on the sofa, sleeping
with a tissue stucked to his nose. he came home looking rather
lethargic, and that's when momma told me he's having a fever. sheesh.
i feel bad hiding the mp4 cable last night so that he couldn't find it.
i mean, i've told his umpteenth times to keep it properly, but he just
can't seem to get that into his head -.-

anyway, i'm still wandering around feeling useless. not to mention, jobless.
hahaha. nah, will be having a job real soon, insyallah. hey! this reminds me
of the days i work for FashionLab. haha okay whatever.

religious lesson this sunday's gonna end at 6pm instead of the usual 11 ):
they call it special sunday -.- gonna have captain's meet. urgh. don't likeyy ):
plus it's at bedok. i'm just hoping we have a transport to send us back.
aite. don't wish to mention much about the camp thinggy anymore.

just wanna tell th wholeeeeeeeeeee world that i miss someone.
and yes, you shall make a guess.

this innocence is brilliant

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

come home soon.

2010-02-07T01:17:00.003+08:00

hearing your voice makes me feel like you're right beside me, even though you're
literally miles away(; your three calls today makes your absence alil' more easier
to cope with. infact, alot more easier(; but gees, if given a choice to have you going away
again, i dontttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt wanttttttttt it. it sucks not to irritate you ):
and ofcourse, miss you and sulk with you and imagine with you and being an echo whenever
you sing(; sunset supermannnnnnnnnnnnnn (echo: supermannnnnnnnnnnn)

it's 1:27 am onthclock, which means you'll be home soooooooooon in a few hours time!
well actually, 12 to 13 hours to be exact ): haish. but its okay. hahaha i find it funny how
i'll miss you and need you more when you're one day away from me, compared to 3 days.
but whatever it is, you'll be backbackback soonsoonsoon! FARDZ, they're comingggg back!
i bet you're smilingsmilingsmiling uh(:

god, why am i feeling hyper when i'm sleepy :/
yaaaaawns* someone will be in beauty sleep this very moment for sure(;
i miss you big boy, you know i truly do.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

more than ever.

2010-02-05T22:00:00.003+08:00

sometimes, you'll just miss those special moments again.
wishing it's here, wishing it's happening again right this very
moment when you think of it, and wishing the special person
you shared these moments with, is right here beside you.

well i dont know about you guys, but when typing every word of
the above, only one person manage to creep into my heart and make
make me smile with a tear lingering at the corner of my eye(;

haish. you'll be gone during the weekends over the causeway.
and i'll be all alone ); something tells me that religious lessons this
coming sunday will be a pain in the butt. urgh, this camp thinggy is gettin'
on my nerves. and who will i rant to if i need someone's shoulders? );

haish. wake up love, wake up from your beauty sleep ):
i miss you, already.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2010-02-03T15:10:00.004+08:00

nina's only.

no matter how far, no matter how near, love between us

never fade. The tides may be high and low but we'll
hang on the sailing ship till we find an island, just for us.
even the night is full of fire , even the day is full of ice
love between us never fade.

i might not be the best, but the only best for you
i'll take care of your fragile heart, no one can ever
have a slight touch . it is just for me.

no matter how long, no matter how deep the pain is
my love for you is still like the time when i first met you
keep on burning , keep on shining, keep on glowing
till the end of time

sincerely, i love you sharifah farahlina.

her only and forever ,
afi

clueless.

2010-02-01T22:06:00.004+08:00

last sunday when i went to religious lessons, hilwan told me about this particular lady who
went to Paris alone. i was intrigued, and i really am in awe of her. well, i'm not saying that i'm
planning to do that, but still, the thought of being independent and prepared to see the beauty
of the world alone without having a friend to share the excitement, kinda impressed me truly.

as i type this out, a scene or rather a picture of a place keeps repeating itself in my head.
and yes, if given a chance, a safe transport to and fro, a week off from everything, and
some food to spare, i would love to go to bintan resort's beach. leave me there, and i'll just
pamper myself with nature, allow nature to appreciate me, and let nature fill up my heart.

cause right now, the empty feeling is killing me softly.

nins.

heartbroken.

2010-01-31T01:34:00.002+08:00

sometimes, things just get entangled by itself.
and then you try to pull one string away, hoping you'll find a way out.
but the next thing you know? that move just made the whole mess tighter.

and the next thing you realise?
you found out you're a failure in soothing hearts,

but a champ in breaking them. oh, and don't forget the tears.
it's like a topping on a beauty cake.

ninsy.

2010-01-22T01:46:00.001+08:00

sometimes, the state of my room depicts what kind of state my
mind is in. haha, and now my room's messssssed up. hahaha.
but well, managed to do some clearing up just now, so it's better
now! hehe. will finnish th rest tomorrow morning, and my room
will be spick and span once again, haha i hopeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

anyway! nothing much for today i guess. well lemme just update
on this week alright. on monday and tuesday, had OPS meeting
with th rest of my journalist members together with our mentor.
syahidah couldn't make it, so it's just hilwan. anyway if you're wondering
what OPS means.. erm, i'm not really sure myself, hahahaha. okay sorry.
but anyway! it was kinda fun and the besttttt thing was, i get to handle
a DSLR and that is freaking cool for a person who doesn't own one, haha.
anyway, came across afew awesome little shops which sells clothes and
etc etc along arab streeet i think. haha it's dope i tell you. farahaqila,
me and th other girls just went gaga over them. th guys just mind their
own business and stood outside.. taking photos i guess? hahaha okay i dontknow,
or perhaps i forgot. but whatever it is, i am sure to bring my girls there one day,
and i'll even drag love to that place one fine fine day, insyallah(:

speaking of love, i bet he's souuuundddd asleep now(:
YAY! tomorrow's a fridayyyyyy. which means it'll be th weekends soon
and my love don't have to wake up earlyearlyearly in th morning and
leave me a text message before leaving for schoooooool. even though he'll
be going to johore or somewhere this saturday, and i'll be packed with
grandmomma's birthday celebration with th whole of my maternal family
on sunday, i bet everything's gonna work out just fine, insyallah(;
there's no doubt i'm gonna miss you like never before, and will be longing
for you so much, dear.

oh, before i sleep tonight, i'm gonna plug in my earpiece
and listen to our recorded conversations onthfone, smile t myself about it,
drift off to sleep, and meet you at th other side of this world. a world where
th only living thing that exist, is th two of us(: i love you.

i give my heart cause nothing can compare in this world to you.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

THE best.

2010-01-18T02:28:00.003+08:00

afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
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afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.
afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.

afi is the best for nina. afi is the best for nina.

even though it's past midnight when this is being written, i just wanna let you know
that whatever i've promised, won't be forgotten. cause i love you. and i want you
to know, that you really are the best for me. not because you want me to say, not
because i'm afraid i'll ruin your day. but it's because of YOU, who have managed
to slip silently into my heart and make me feel this way. i love you, muhdkhalilafifi.

your true love, sharifahfarahlina.

camp crap and love's romance.

2010-01-16T22:38:00.003+08:00

after much thinking, maybe i was trying to seduce him/it.

gosh, i'm really starting to feel th pain of planning for th camp thingy, heh.
okay great, now i can talk and rant about it. my religious class is organising
a camp for little kids, and ofcourse, WE'RE th organisers, haha. but hey, being
th vice captain for th Journalist team isn't too bad compared t th others, especially
finance! gosh i pity one of my girls, atikah, who is th vice captain of th finance&marketing
team. i bet she's having a hell of a time. but one thing i'm in awe of her, is how patient
she can be at critical times, when most of us are already on th verge of dying. haha.
but it's a relief so far i'm able to get along okay with both th captain other members.
and aizura, i reallyyyyyy want her t ATTEND th camp ): and aifa, i think she's glad to be
under F&B! how i wish all of us were together );

anyway! love came over for a moment or so, passed him my adidas school bag
i used for school last year. well, for now it's gonna be his(: so that he'll remember
me and know that eventhough im not literally infront of his eyes in school, he'll
somehow feel th nina-vibes around him, hehe. besides th bag, my calculator,
some books and notes are also with him. so do remember me my dear(:

but whatever it is, i'm just thankful
i'm able to see his beauty face, cause it's been some time since i last saw him ):
haish, i sure missed you dear. and as usual, he smelt niceeee. tsk, too nice ):
and thanks for that mrbean dear, seeeee. no wonder i always forget to forget you.
(:

i'll be there as soon as i can,
but i'm busy mending the broken pieces of the life i had before

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

RESULTS baby!

2010-01-12T13:08:00.005+08:00

he's just using th compact's mirror, for sure.

woohooooo. O levels are over, and th outcome of my results was really unexpected.
last week, i was paying extra attention to certain courses which actually has not
really high requirements, just to get myself prepared for th worst. but instead,
i was th one who is surprised. i mean, seriously. th only thing i was afraid of,
(and i really meant, afraid), is my MATHS. have been flunking my maths throughout
th whole sec four year like nobody's business. nina, F9. F9, nina. but this time
i managed to scrape through just nice at the right time, C6. haha yeah i know,
C6 is nothing to you people. but to me, it's victory baby. muahaha.

i'm too shy to tell in details what my scores are, hehe. but just to share,
after adding my bonus points, i score a pretty 15 for my L1R4, and a
pathetic 22 for my L1R5. alhamdulillah, i'm just grateful i managed to
go on to th next stage of education in my life, and ofcourse, make all the
people who cares for me and love me, really proud(: all my sleepless nights,
mugging hard till the early dawn, sleeping with pressure, and time sacrification
sure paid off(: alhamdulillah. hmm sacrification. hey wait, is there such a word?

love was somewhere in front of 4D's table when i received my results.
he was there(; especially my maths part! hahaha i still can't get over my C6.
i swear i was refraining myself from running to him and giving him a bear hug(;
i didn't get to head home with love, which was somehow devastating.

love,
but still, i know deep inside how you're feeling dear. i know you're happy for me,
but i know th other part of your feelings. cause.. i dontknow. i just feel you.
but don't you worry, in th 'other world' out there, i'll still be taking care of myself
like how you taught me to(; and as for whether any of your silly 'dramas' will
happen, i know you know th answer(; question your heart how much you believe
in me, then tighten your grips around my hand. cause only then you'll realise,
we're going on another trip of roller coaster, up and down up and down. but i promise
you something, at th end of th crazy roller coaster ride, you'll still realise i'm still right
there, just next to you(:

congratulations to munie and nuruldhamirah for their awesome success!
i'm sure after all, they're contented with what they received(: and it was
great to talk to munie onthfone before and after th results(:
to jany and namie, i'm sure no matter what you guys are gonna have
a bright future awaiting you, somehow sooner or later. cause i believe
you people are smart asses with a pretty face(:
i just love my girls \m/

dang, my post is super long and i'm having second thoughts whether or
not to update on my religious classes, which is having a big event, and
th somehow cool but tiring position i'm holding, and th indefinite jobs awaiting
me and my team members. oh well, that can wait(:

oh and bythway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMMIRAH!
wow, so fast you're 17 already! anyway, may Allah bless
you and may you do well well well for you Os dear. have fun,
remember to smile and have fun today; its your day(:

gonna scan through th poly admission book thinggy and await for my
charming prince to reach home. damn. why must classes end so late ):
i want him home now now now ):
i love you.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2010-01-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

would you cry, if you see me dying
would you lie, if you see me hoping
would you love, if you see me hurt
would you fly, if you see me falling
would you die, if you see me tearing
would you be my hero tonight?

you know th answers to all of these, and your heart cringes alittle when this is mentioned.
if you do, then you do love me after all(: and loving me needs alittle courage to believe in
me. believe that i will and will not do certain things which i say i would or wouldn't,
respectively. i'm with you in this, in that, in this and that, and everything else. i know
i have already touched your beauty heart. but this time, allow me to touch your heart
and hold your hands, and bring you closer to where we always dream we would be. our imaginary, flawless, magical and amazing future. i love you, muhdkhalilafifi.

with love, pipi's ninsy.

2010-01-05T22:58:00.002+08:00

similar to this picture, maybe you can be my unintended

currently tuning to unintended my muse, texting love and just doing some
random thinking. anyway, i've re-activated facebook and i'm just surprised
at how lazy i am t actually log in into it. haha, maybe i'm so used t not using it.
anyway, might be meeting nuruldhamirah this friday. great, that way i can
pass her birthday present also(; hehs. ohyeaaah, and it's also my pay day anyway.
okay whatever, that's random. okay let's get down t business.

today's th second day of school for th others and i'm feeling
funny, cause usually i'll be one of them, haha. but that's not th point! point is,
listening t love's rantings and fret just makes me smile with tears in my eyes.
i know how much he misses me, how he'll imagine all th stuff we'll do which
involves us being together. i know how he'll imagine me sitting right beside him at
th quadrangle like we used t during silent reading. and when it rains, we'll always
sigh and die inside as we know, we have t move t th hall which basically
means our classes will be seperated. how we'll wait for each other during recess
whenever possible(;

sayang, how much you miss those moments, that's how much i do too(;
how much you think of it, that's how frequent i'll think of it too(;
hugs* i love you muhdkhalilafifi. you know i truly do.

sedang merenungku dalam dilema rindu

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

welcome the new year plus love's birthday!

2010-01-01T15:31:00.005+08:00

guess what someone's birthday present was?

something he has always been dreaming of, a leather jacket(:

my personal favourite!

thankyou for these sincere words handsome, i feel you(:

heyheyhey! it's 2010 so let's welcome th new year(: i have tonnnns to spill out
here so i might as well cut th crap and start this thing, hehe. soooo, hello lambs(:

today's th first of january and something special is about t happen today(:
one of my bloods is getting engaged, hehe. i love th stuff decorated by
love's momma. will upload th pictures soon soooon sooooon! (i promise)
will be making a move around four plus or five i guess, so yeah(:

now let's rewindddd alittle to th 29th of december, my bigboy's birthday!
i swear to god, planning for his day was exciting. erm, okay maybe i was alittle
more excited for his surprise compared t th outing, hehe(: met love at boonlay int,
but before that, i secretly sneaked into his house, into his messy room and placed
his birthday present into his cupboard. muahaha, and thanks t irfan who remained
silent about th surprise(:

and so! we continued our journey, to downtowneast for th movie(: initially wanted
t catch alvin and th chipmunks2, but it was fullllll. but trust me, avatar was not how
i expected it t be. it turned out great and interesting, i swear(: alright thennn headed
to changi airport, terminal two for our late lunch plus dinner, and had my all time
favourite, earthquakeeeeee icecream(: and it's all on th house baby, winks*
after some shots, (aboveee), cabbed home together and walaaaaahhh ;
that birthday boy called upon realising his birthday present hanging in his
cupboard(: i just love to surprise him, cause it's easy! i just put on my acting
skills to place, and trust me, he won't have anyyyy idea of it. good kan? (:

alrightalright i have to rush, momma's making a whole big fuss.
so chiaaaaaoszszsz baby.
(i love you afi)

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-12-25T00:09:00.003+08:00

biar pun jauh diriku kembara
ke alam rindu berkalungan cinta
tersemai kasih hanya padamu

bias cintamu menyentuh di jiwa
lirik matamu panahan arjuna
hanya mu kasih izin terlena
di persada hati ini

puisi cinta ku lagu kan
mengharap restu untuk kita
kamar hati mu ku serikan
dengan kembang jambangan cinta

aku cinta padamu, nina

sharifahfarahlina's,
afi

soundless cries.

2009-12-22T01:06:00.007+08:00

have you ever been t a place where you start missing it only 10 years+
later? well i know i did. and it's not just any place. when my brother's
and i were little, momma always brings us t ginza plaza. can't remember
why though. and in this common building holds a place where i now feel like
running back to. a playground. it's located at th rooftop. and i remember th
feeling whenever the doors of th lift open, bringing me to that special place.
th grounds of th playground was not cement, but grass. can't remember if
it's real or fake though. it's crystal clear to me how i felt whenever i saw that
familiar place, being there just feels like i'm in a different world. my world where
i am free t be myself and forget everything. yeah, i was really really little back then.
and they have some swings specially for babies. i swear to god i loved them. i can't really remember how th rest of th places looks like. perhaps they did hang some fake baby
blue skies or smth, cause i remember how magical and fantasy-cal it felt.
fantasy-cal? hah.

yeah whatever. but fantasy is an understatement. i have been silently thinking
about this place th past years.

th best thing about being a two year old again, is th fact that you don't have to battle
with your own feelings, th way we do now. also to feel safe, being in th knowledge
that by hook or by crook, someone will be there to catch your back or t help
you up when you fall and bleed. trust me, it's always better to bleed through your skin,
never through your heart. cause it hurts real bad. even worse than putting medication
on your bleeding, bare skin i guess.

i just wanna go to that place and feel magical and special again.
th place where all th other kids don't understand each other, but still
get along together.

tak tercapai bintang di langit

afifi's, ninsy.

apple of my eyes.

2009-12-16T23:59:00.000+08:00

how i wish i can kiss and cuddle them all(:

work was as usual, full of 'hey welcome' and 'you're welcome/pleasure'
haha, sheesh. i think if i were to be paid for th number of times those phrases
are being said, i'll be super rich by now, hehehe. okay dream on, i know(:

nothing significant took place today. oh maybe just one! being touched
by a little baby(: hehe. OH AND HELL YEAH, ONE MOREEEEE!
during my break earlier just now, i was walking and i saw this gorgeous
top, or dress perhaps. it's leather at th upper part, and normal fabric
at th bottom(: first look at it and i fell in love with it(: plus! i was onthfone
with love at that moment, and he was th one who endured my excitement
and squeals on th fone, hehe. maybe we're just leather freaks, haha -.-
since i didn't carry much cash with me, i decided to make a reservation,
and i'll come collect it this friday onthway to work(: oh, and did i mention
that particular shop is located exactly beside th shop i work for? hahaha.

have been doing quite some thinking and planning these few days.
god knows what's on my unpredictable head(: have been missing
love as usual, plus babies and little kids somehow reminds me of him(:
ahhhhhhhhhhhh. i wanna look into those keropok eyes and tell him i
miss him ); haish. LOVE, you know i do right? ):

off from work tomorrow, but heading to johore with momma and maybe
girlfy! i swear i miss her much, it's been sometime since we've met :/
love's heading to fico, have fun bby(: i'll miss you as usual, no doubt.
hugs and kisses, i miss you.

apipi's,
Ninaaa.

no more sean kingston please.

2009-12-15T12:37:00.001+08:00

getting ready for work, and i just wishhhhhhhhhhhh they won't play
sean kingston's music again. i meant, come onnnn, sean kingston sey -.-

endured six pathetic hours yesterday listening t those repeated songs.
i feel like bringing my own player or something and blast it. hmmm maybe
i'll ask them for permission today. god, SEAN KINGSTON man. tsktsk.

LOVE. I. SWEAR. TO. GOD. I'M. GONNA. MISS. YOU.
TSK ):

afififififififififif's
ninnnnsy.

out out out with love love love!

2009-12-11T23:59:00.003+08:00

i miss this place and th person i was with

the best companion

red red red red

innocence

another batch of newborn babies
(phhhhst, th rest of th pics will be at my multiply! will upload asap)

alright! today is actually 11th of dec, but i'm still gonna blog it as th 9th!
hehehe cause that was actually th actual date of my date with love(:
since th pictures have done th introduction, i'll just wrap it up!

my day on this particular day was just awesome. i have to say all my dates
with love was just as great and awesome. but still, i have to admit that this
date was something new, something different, something alittle more stupendous
with a little touch of romance and love written all over it(: hehe, complicated much?

as promised, someone treated me to seoulgarden at marina square.
i dont have to elaborate on how delicious th food was, cause i think it is(:
love even helped himself with another batch of different kinds of chicken!
hehe. after filling our tummies, headed to peninsula to look at something
he has been eyeing for, for quite some time(: walked around alittle, saw ADELPHI.
hahaha gosh, inside joke anyway, winks*

after that, walked t th riverside and spend some time there. then comes my
favouriteeeee part which was th phototaking part hehe. it's like, 10 shots is just
not enoughhhh. hahaha and love was like laughing at how ridiculous we are,
setting th timer, running t th desired spot, then smile for th camera while th people
around was somehow looking. hehehe. but who cares? i know i donttttt (:

then after some walking, we made our way opposite esplanade, at th merlion(:
it was already dark by th time we reached, and th atmosphere was just beautiful.
it was picture perfect, really. with th gentle wind hitting our faces, gorgeous scene
around us, and some lovely words said by love, everything just falls beautifully
into place. hehe corny hmmm. but hey, that's how it was that night(:
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss that night terribly ):
walked around alittle, blahblahblah then cabbbbbed home together.
gosh, it was all awesome(:

okay i betttt you cupcakes can skip this part!

yes love, i know exactly how much you miss this very
day cause that's what i'm feeling too(: but hey, as we
promised, future's gonna a muchmuch more memorable
and great for us. cause we believe that for us, every date
is like a first date(: thanks for the treat, and this wonderful
night that i'm sure will be kept safely and cherished in my heart
and in my box of memories. i love you.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

ouch

2009-12-08T23:59:00.001+08:00

the game we're living is just unpredictable don't you think?
haha sheesh, enough of me and my bull crap about life being
a game and whatever, i'm only sixteen and i'm speaking like i'm sixty.
haha but hey seriously. even in your most trivial relationships will you
realise how the littlest thing regarding feelings, matter. matter the most.

okay whatever, i'm making this as fast as possible here for, i dont know what
reason. but anyway, its 1:14 am but i'm still posting it as 8 dec. i woke up with
a totally different feeling this morn, and i'm feeling another different feeling currently.
tsk, i think i'm crazy ): there's alot of feelings to be blurted out, in my usual way.
using my own words so that people will have a hell of a time figuring out what
i actually meant. i enjoy that, heh. *lopsided smile

headed to grandmomma's place till late night. i enjoy spending every moment
chasing ryian anaque around the house, trying to make him smile and laugh,
and i especially enjoy the moment when he tried to coax me when i pretended
to sulk. i swear i miss that small guy already(:

can't wait for my morning excitement tomorrow morning, breathing in the
fresh air and bathing in my own pure crystals. hey wait, i wanna thank a whole
lot of people!

thankyou momma for finally buying some stuff we need
thankyou nenek for accompanying us and loving me
thankyou ryian for hitting me in th nose twice, then blowing me kisses
thankyou chacha for prep-talking with me,
and last but not least, thankyou afi for making me have a hard time sleeping
peacefully tonight. i cant waaaaaaaaaaaait to see you tomorrow.

eh wait,
i'm seeeeing you laterrrr, TODAY. gosh, okay i gotta go sleeep.
(i'll really, really try)
chiaozszsz.

not everything is like what it seems,
never be too sure of the smiles you're witnessing

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

breakfast ):

2009-12-07T15:44:00.004+08:00

taken from nani's blog, so credits to my precious(:

i swear to god i felt so rotten and outdated th moment i woke up from my beauty sleep
this morning. oops, nah. afternoon i meant. haha. i dontknow why but it's natural
for me to be feeling that way whenever i wake up superrrrrrrrr late, like today for
instance, at a pathetic 1:30 pm -.- sheesh shame on me. and surprisingly, i still have
the guts to blog it out, haha okay whatever. bytheway! hello cupcakes(:

i smiled almost th whole time when i hopped into nani's blog and read her post
about our latest outing with th girls on 3rd dec just minutes ago. haha, i dontknow
but i just find th way she combines our name, her expression and everything, cute(:
okayokay let's move it.

fasting today, and i guess both momma and me were oblivious to th time this
morning as we didn't wake up for our pre-dawn meal ): it's okay though, just
wondering what are we gonna break fast later, hehe(:

anyway heard that th little adorable boy, ryian anaque is over at grandmomma's
place(: i miss that small guy! i miss his scrunched up face when he wants t look
outside th window and i pretended to ignore him. i miss how he'll immitate his
own picture in my cell when he looks at it. and somehow, this little guy reminds
me of a big guy! haha, yessss. that's you, pipi. do you know how much i miss you?
haha ofcourse you dont. but hey, just rememmmmmber, that no matter how far
you are, this heart is always, and will always be screaming for you.
i love you(:

i'll cherish every part of you

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

workout!

2009-12-06T20:12:00.000+08:00

glamorous, notttttttttttttt.

getting ready for a jog with both mommma and danialfaris in afew minutes
time. so, yay! getting all sweaty, smelly and worked out feels awesome, hehe(:
i promise i would be out of th room and all set to go by 8:15 pm, and now it's
8:12 pm -.- so, bye! eh waaaaaaaaaaait, for th umpteenth time, i miss love ):
i miss love i miss love i miss love. he must be bored at work now, watching
th small television, hehe. how adorable(: gosh, i'm supposed to be reaaadyyy.
kaykaykay chiaoooosz.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

goodnight my lover.

2009-12-06T01:03:00.000+08:00

yaaaaaaaaaaaawns, its 1:03 am right now now now.
just changed my blogskin, like finallllllyyyyyy! hehe.
okayokay, gonna switch off this lappie, wash my hands,
get my bed ready, off the lights, tuck myself in bed, and
wait for love's call(: after my usual prayers before going t sleep,
th last thing i would want to hear is someone's beauty voice(:
so chiaosz!

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

elle-ai-effff-ieee.

2009-12-05T01:31:00.006+08:00

life is a crazy thing ;
there are good times and there are bad times,

and everything in between.

yeaaaaaah, life sure is a crazy thing. come, let's beat around the
bush about this, so that your thoughts are free to run around,
and make a verdict for yourself of how life is being pictured as.
life. you never know what's lying ahead of you. threatening or
satisfying, the answer can only be derived once the game is being
played. haha. i guess life's just what it is. soft on the outside, hard
on the inside. or is it the other way round? haha whatever. i'm just
amazed at how pulsating life can get.

alriggggght i'll do alitte updating here. 2 days ago, 3rd Dec on Thursday,
headed to town with my girls and watched twilight saga new moon.
haha, jacob and edward. the candies for the girls to ooooh and ahhhh at.
(except me!) i swear to god my three girls are head over heels for jacob,
righhhhht? haha(: but anyway, looking at jacob's fitness just inspired me
to drag my lazy ass out from th house and start joggggging again once more(:
so, yay! a plusplus point for me(: talked and talked with the girls. eiqah
took off earlier as she had something to rush to. prep talk with th rest.
most guys can be pig at times, i have to say. i just hope my precious is
coping everything patiently. haish nani, nani. i am here for you regardless
of anything. i might not have th power to put everything at peace, but i can
be your listening ear my dear(;

URGH. guys who acts like jerk = pig, period.
speaking of guys, i misssssssssssssssssssss my favourite someone ):

afi, i love you.

the one who would take my hands, look me in the eye, and
tell me he loves me. the one who would shoot me in the heart,
but heals it without leaving a scar. the one who would smile at
me once, but the essence of that smile just stays with me forever.
to sum up? the best man alive(:
nina's.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2 December 2009, Wednesday.

2009-12-02T18:14:00.004+08:00

i swear t god it's alive

tssskkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. have been wanting to change blogskin for days,
almost a week already. but seems to me like none of it catches my eye.
haha i'm really tired of it, so i'm just gonna have to pass, and just endure
with whatever skin i'm stucked with right now, hahha. anyway! hello you(:

mundane seems like a perfect word to describe my day today. it's okay,
at least i'll be out with th girls tomorrow! and i'm hoping i'm able to meet
love one of these days, cause i am really trying hard to sustain my missings for you.

it's hard going to bed every night thinking what crap might just come up next.
thankgoodness i don't have t go through all of that. haha, random.
but heyyyy it's trueeee. okay you know what, actually i just have nothing t say
right this very moment. and i'm just typing this crap so as to lengthen my post.
ahhhhhh i miss khalilafifi. anyone else misses afi? yeah i know, i do too ):
tsk, i'm crazy. hands off th keyboard, chiaosz.

waiting to be with you, every moment.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

29 November 2009, Sunday.

2009-11-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

my tummy's bloated. it feels like after all that eaaaaating today,
i put on another 1567893q3 kg. tsk, okay i exaggerated. but hey, that's how
it feels like when you missed five days of jogggggging. five consecutive days, mind
you. hahaha call me health freak, paranoid or whatever. i afraid i am, hehh.

as for today, went out with momma, aunty ruly and fadhil. it feels so good to
be having long car rides, haha. drove to plaza sing, then t changi beach, then
t newton, then homeeee. th changi beach part was totally uncalled for.
aunty ruly randomly asked, ''eh, mau ke pantai? ke changi yuk!'' haha.
we reached changi around six plus, close to seven. th atmosphere was just...
perfect.

it was close to dark, th breeze was cooling, cool enough to melt your
pain away. th view was superb(not as great as bintan though!)
and as th skies grew totally dark, i sat on th sands near th waters.
looked up t th sky and i met th moon(: whispered some secrets t it,
then continue t enjoy that moment. th scent of th salty sea just makes
me feel comfy and th sounds of th sea splashing against th innocent
sands just enhances th whole picture(: one of my dying wishes that very
moment was for that favourite someone of mine t be right there beside me
that veryyyyy moment. while i was texting him, i know he wishes that too(:
(plus today is th twenty-one month, hehe)
oh well, we know we'll reach there together soon. insyallah, just wait and
seeeeee. winks* (:

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah i'm sleepy ):
as much as my eyes wants to shut itself t sleep, i am missing someone
pretttttttty badly ): andddddd, my body's aching ): i'm not sure if it's
screaming t go to spa or it's longing for some exercises, hehe.
oh well, i'm just trying t make things look bad here. shut up nina.
*yaaaaawns, let's go t sleep pretty babies.
chiaoszxz.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

27 November 2009, Friday.

2009-11-27T15:25:00.007+08:00

th past few days are totally not my favourite days, i swear.
but alhamdulillah, everything seemed to go just fine(:

as you can see, i've posted quite a few pictures of someone
above(: handsome right, hmmmmmmm? hehe.
haish, i swear to god i miss this gorgeous man. i can't
waittttt be with you one of these days, soooooooon(:

i wanna take pictures, lots and lots and lots of them with love(:
i'll make sure love pose for th camera like there's no tomorrow.
hehe. come home sooon, i miss you ): alhamdulillah, everything's
over(; even though we know some time in th future, certain things
will not go right, we know we'll always be facing it together. no matter
how bitter things might get, you know we'll always be much more
stronger and blissful once we get over things with patience,
endurance, and a heart full of love and understanding.
*hugs, i love you(:

if you're not th one, then why does my hand fit yours this way?

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

23 November 2009, Monday.

2009-11-23T14:06:00.004+08:00

days filled with joy, and days filled with sorrows.
i don't know just what to do.
am i happy today, or am i lonely tomorrow?

sighs*
i really can't wait to go over t grandmomma's place.
where's th peace that have been in me all these while ):
i really need to find it, i really have t ):

ouch.
something really hurts. really hurts.

biarlah sepi menemaniku.

nins.

22 November 2009, Sunday.

2009-11-22T22:39:00.005+08:00

someone once told me that when you're in angst, your breathing is inconsistent.
th two nostrils are suppose to have the same intake and output. but when in angst,
it doesn't fulfill that requirement. maybe it's true after all. anyone got a little smth
about angst plus hurt? it'd be a good blend.

just slice this crimson nicely, will you?

nins.

21 November 2009, Saturday.

2009-11-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

the birthday girl, Aifa(:

models tak jadi.

when freak meets freak.

bestbestbest crazy girl.

the angels who arrived at sentosa last wednesday(:

woohooo, finally changed my blog skin! well, this was once my
blog skin actually, hehe. but hey, who cares? it's pretty anyway(:
bythway! hello cupcakes, nice meeting you darlings once more(:

aite, let's take a step back and rewind to Tuesday, 17 November.
went out for a movie date with love, and headed to Lot1 for a
late lunch. even though some plans didn't work out, but no doubt,
i still had fun and enjoyed everyyyyyyy moment with love(:
and sheeesh, i'm somehow shy to blurt this, but i actually teared
when watching 2012, the part where the son calls up his dad. haha.
th mr cool beside me was like, "shhh dah jangan nangis."
haha well i did anyway. hehs(: blahblahblah, and we finally
reach th part which we hate the most, parting of ):
but still, it was a great day. especially with a great person(:

moving on to Wednesday, 18 November.
as planned, headed t Sentosa with th As, (aifa atikah aizura)
t celebrate aifa's birthday(: i won't elaborate on how aifa reacted
cause i swear it'll be 3 paragraphs long! hehe. but well, she was
just speechless and extreeeemely exciteddddd. yeah, really(:
to wrap it up, we took tons and tons of pictures. i swear, tons.
onthway back home, we made a guess at th number of pictures
we took. we said it's either 70 plus or 60 plus. but guess what?
in my album in multiply, we took around 90 shots(: and that's
excluding the pictures in aizura's camera. goodness! how vain can girls
get? very, hehe. winks*

anyway to my sexaye ladies, the sentosa pictures
and the last day of Os pictures are posted at my new multiply web.
go check it out! (url at the most bottom of this post)

as for todayyyy, love had a gig. well, wouldn't want to elaborate
too much on that. and now, love's probably somewhere in johore ):
tsk, th missings keep piling and piling not wanting to get tired of it.
but anyway, will be looking forward to your return(:
(i miss you)

half of me seem to be excited to start working, and another
seem more worried. excited as it's a first time experience.
worried, as it might possibly meant that some freedom will
be tied up. well, look to th bright side girl. somehow things will
work out and everything's gonna be fine. (i hope)

aite then. gotta go fill in th job application thingy for madrasah's
camp next year, read some pages from the blue book as there is
an exam tomorrow. arab or something. and ofcourse, will be waiting
for a text t reach my cell, telling me that my prince charming is in singapore.
chiaosz.

[ninsyyy.multiply.com]

terbayang wajahmu oh sayang.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-11-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

nins. muns. mers.

muns. jans. nams. nins. mers.

nams. nins. jans.

woooooohhhooooooooooo, i'm back with a flash, feelin' so blessed(:
damn, it's really been a longgggggg time since i laid hands on this lappie
and actually blogged. haha anyway for the sake of some dumbdumbs
who need some updates, i'm sooo done with my Os and for now, and i'm just
praying for th best(: planning to find a job real soon to collect some cash
to be placed into my currently thin wallet, hehe. aliff told me to work as a retail,
or something like that. he says it's because i love to talk. haha, well i'll consider(:

anyway, i pray for munie and her family's safety who is currently making their
way to india(: munie's dying for this day to come. haha, well my dear, it has finally
arrived(: momma and aunty ruly is up to something today, and they, as usual,
offered me to tag along. sheesh, but it's always the wrong time. cause i've already
have plans with my favourite someone today, hehe winks*

even though some plans have been changed due to somethings which came up
at the last minute, i'm so glad to be with love at all laterrr(:
even though it seems like it's outdated, but we're catching 2012, hehs.
(:

anywooots. there are quite a few more pictures taken with my gorgeous
ladies above, but for nowww, these are the only ones i managed to edit(:

i'm so gonna have to change my blogskin soon cause it's getting kinda
boring ): ohyeaaaaaa, almost forgot! thanks nunu dear for updating
for me th other day(: i appreciate all of it! hugs*

alright, it's 12:57 PM now and i'm gonna head to the showers,
get dressed, doll up and make a move. adios cupcakes, will update
soon. haha this time i promise, real soon.
(:

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-10-29T13:08:00.002+08:00

ignore that stupid caption on my picture which labelled as ' jummie's ' ewww !

hello people , i'm currently updating for my babygirl as i think her lappy's charger is spoilt . wait till she get a new one aye ? good timing that her lappy charger is spoilt . so she won't be switching on her lappy . sucha distraction to her . i want her to study and score the very best for all subjects . so that she could enter her dream course and poly (:

well nina , i'm here updating ... wanting to tell you all the best for your major big O's . try to give your best shots aye ? and let me tell you this , don't you ever leave blanks like how you left it during your maths papers eh ! :D i love you i love you . hehe .

let's have a date after your O's (: i miss you a lot okay sweetheart !

im sorry that i didnt meet you before your papers to give you motivation and hugs . i did that only on your first paper . boohoo . sorry babygirl (:

i'll help you update untill you bought a new charger aite ? love you babe .

with love ,
nunuPatrick (:

you know i know eh babe ? spongebob and me is starting our job soon . shall bring you and him out someday ! :D

eve of raya.

2009-09-19T22:42:00.004+08:00

this blog is seriously filled with dust and mites, oh god.
but anyway, just a short post to entertain people who are
loyal enough to hop into my blog to check for updates(:
god, i love you people. hehe. anyway, selamaaaat hari rayaaaa.

sighs*
i want only one thing. hey no, two things.
one, is to ace my Os this year and get to a good course.
two, i wanna dance. real bad. i meant, i really wanna dance
real bad. not, dancing bad. okay whatever. those who knows
me well enough should know how much i'm dying to dance.
malay, traditional dance please. tsk, i wanna danceeee ):

muhkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-09-01T20:36:00.004+08:00

maths paper 2 and english paper 1 tomorrow.
social studies and physics the next.
english paper , chemistry paper 3 and fnn the
following day. my oh my. hey, how can they arrange physics
and social studies on the same day?
tsk. i swear my brain's gonna burst the night before ):

and for love, i want you to know something.
everywhere i go, i'm surrounded my your embrace.
i miss you.

you are born just to loose or to win

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

18th.

2009-08-29T13:02:00.005+08:00

study date with love later, then proceed on to breaking fast over at his
grandmomma's place for today. i have to say the menu for the
day makes me a little scared though. tsk, i feel like biting love
sometimes. but well, too bad i can't(:

chemistry is getting on my nerves day by day. currently trying to work
my ass off for maths. sometimes physics welcomes me, but most of the
time i'll be lost. i have a thing or two for fnn and i can see myself somehow
feeling excited at accepting the challenge in getting good grades for it.
oh, and the best part is. my prelims are next weeeeeeeeeeeek.
urgh.

okay nina, wipe that frown off your face and plaster a smile.
you're gonna have a great day later, yay(:

oh and one more thing!
happy eighteenth month loving you dear(:
i love you.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

first day of fasting.

2009-08-22T22:09:00.003+08:00

i blend in with the pink toys so well.

it's the first day of fasting month and i'm loving it.
had company for breaking fast this evening, which somehow
brings up the fasting mood once again(:

attended school for some Maths mock exam early this morning.
paper 1 sucks, big time. paper 2 looks more friendly, hehe.
whatever it is, i know i'm not merely prepared for this mock exam,
so i already have in mind the kinds of marks i'll receive. studydate with
love yesterday, physics. thanks handsome(:

feels like im not using my precious time carefully these days.
currently trying to work that out.

it's 1002 pm and i've been planning to hit the books since 9 just now.
yet, i'm still here. tsk, now you see what i mean?

i miss khalil, i love afifi, i'm texting pipi.
i swear to god that if whatever you're texting me now
is true, i'll be on cloud 9. winks*

killing me softly with his songs

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-08-15T10:38:00.005+08:00

de 'AFININA
hey there, hmm, afi's here (: well, currently love's at
madrasah camp and here i am to blog for her. I hope
she's safe by Allah guidance and wish she is having fun .

So, the pictures shows on the day 8 august. She had mentioned
before about it on the previous posts. it was euphoric as ever (:
To cut it short, the dayout was for her belated birthday.
i hope she loves it (:

i think thats all by a rocker.

Sharifahfarahlina's,
afi.

2009-08-10T21:11:00.003+08:00

i swear i have tons of pictures which have yet to be uploaded, but tsk.
screw aliff for loosing my adapter ): especially the pictures taken last
saturday(: wow oh wow, how i wish you cupcakes could feel what me
and that charming man felt that night. awesome and romantic is totally
an understatement, period.

school will be resumed tomorrow, and i ain't sure why i'm not rrly looking
forward to it. well since when i did, haha. the only ultimate reason is
ofcourse, t be with love and to hit the books so as to get my lazy brains
prepared to face my papers this September and October.

it's 9:33 pm now, and maybe i should go ahead and pack my stuff for
tomorrow. then, i shall linger a little while with love and then proceed on
to make appointmentswith my bed. goodnight sweetdreams, chiao.

you are born just to loose or to win

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

sneek peak of the future.

2009-08-09T07:04:00.004+08:00

his favourite

woohooo, rise and shineee cupcakes! it's 07:09 AM now and i'm already
awake(: did my prayers and didn't bother giving a second thought on turning
on the internet switch. haha, so basically here i am. was about to blog last
night, but i was tooooo lethargic till i slept with my laptop in hands.
didn't even manage to reply love's text :/

anyway, happppy birthday Singaporeee(:
erm, stay strong? hehhe.

aite thats it, let's take one step back to yesterday, saturday.
one word: aweeeesomeee gorgeous sweeet breathtaking momenttt.
erm, okay sorry thats five words. hehe. well, yesterday was just
great. was running late to meeting love and yet, two lovely person
on earth still manage to give me a little surprise as a belated birthday(:
nunu and her goodfriend, ganesan was there, surprising me in front of
the lift the moment i stepped out, and showed me to where a cute,
Jerry cake was waiting for me with one pink candle on it(: huggggs*
i love you people, you sweet and charming people(: thankyou, from
the bottom of my heart for the little surprise, i appreciate it so much(:

then hurried to jurongeast to meet love, trained to Bugis to catch the
movie, Up. it was soooo adorable and hilarious! i like that cute fat chubby
small guy(: go catch it! hehe. okay back to me! trained to Harbourfront.
dined at PizzaHut, and end of our meals with PizzaHut's signature:
brownie with vanilla icecream, yeah baby(: apparently i was trying to excite
love about the chocolate pool inside the brownie, but yesterday's brownie
doesn't have that chocolate pool inside. tsk ): but still, it was lips-lickin' good,
and i bet love sure had a tremendous and heavenly experience tasting
the first few bites of it(:
(we had a sneek-peak of the upcoming future together, i love you)
:)

walked around in Vivo and ended up at th rooftop, one of the place i've
been wanting t show love(: spend our time there and snapped pictures(:
ended our day all smiles.

going over th causeway to J with momma and abang's girlfy, wooohooo.
gonna have the chance to pamper myself after this hectic months of
school and everything, alhamdulillah. i have to say th past few days
was stupendous, definitely the days which will be going around with me in
my box of memories in my mind and heart(: apparently i have two calls for
tomorrow, and i'm gonna have to make a choice by tonight.

whatever it is,
after talking sooooo much. i just realised something: i miss love ):

close your eyes, and i'll try to get in

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-08-06T23:48:00.001+08:00

i'll have to warn you cupcakes, it's gonna be a longgg post

speechless.
i hope with that one word i start my post with is enough to tell you people who wished
me on my big day today, that i am overwhelmed with gratitude. ahhhhhh i really am(:
nina oh nina, why do you always have to get all emotionally involved? haha, i dontknow.
okay let's do this shyit.

on first thought, i was thinking of sharing every detail that happened like how
i did every year. but on second thought, nah i dont think so(: let's just do some
highlightings. school was fineeee, classmates was thoughtful and sweet enough
to sing together a birthday song(: some even gave me last minute presents
like sweets and strings? haha such cute people! schoolmates were great, wishing
me here and there when they see me around. damn i feel like a princess, hahaha.

(let's give these darlings some fame baby)
afi huixin hazim khairi nunu munie mera ciknora janny
namie taufiq mellissa fleury aizura munie's uncle syazwan
ashrul jerry jian yang ain shafina ammirah faith sufiah irhas
syuhaidah nazirah passerby? aliff nazri mama baba mr samuel
mdm azlina fauzi bahrul linus jermin jia bao siyun mdm khatijah
basically the whole of sec 4D elton jack felicia abang's girlfy jaszley
damn, i squeezed almost every juice from my brains ;/
i am so sorry if any names are not mentioned. still, i appreciate them
like you guys know i would(: your wishes are so appreciated.
i love you people lah, \m/

and if you know me quite well, i'll always try to save the best for the last, winks*
was somehow disheartened to learn the fact that i won't be seeing love today
as he doesn't have school. after my longggg day in school today, i reached home
around 7 plus. and around 8, love called me.
(translated)
n: "hello?"
a: "hello, where are you?"
n: "kitchen? haha why?"
a: "take a look outside the kitchen window"
n: (i was thinking he wants to show me the moon/star)
n: "ohmyyyygod, what are you doinggg theree?"
a: "haha, shhh"
n: "ya allah, what.. tsk, ohmygoddd. okayokay i'll come down!"
a: "haha yeah okayokay love you"

naughty boy. and he came with a big paper bag in one hand, carrying
along my presents(: oh god, up till now i can still picture him standing
under the orange spotlight, looking up and gave me a gorgeous smile full
of hope and surprises. like sincerely, i am still shocked. the whole time i
was thinking love wasn't really great at keeping surprises from me, but this
time round he proved me wrong ultimately. boy am i surprised, tsk.
see, you'll always be creeping around, giving me more reasons to love you(:

i swear the present you got me cost you a bomb, as the price tag was
there, my dear love. looks like i don't have to bring my fone t school anymore.
i have a newww gadget. woohoooo! and pictures can still be inserted inside.
i promise your handsome face is gonna be in(: and your baby photo album
you brought just for me to look at, is truly appreciated(: it got me going ooh gaga.

i am soooo looking forward t the weekends. wooohooo, insyallah everyth's
gonna go on smoothly, just like a smooth criminal(: and yes nina, you're
finally sweet sixteen. promise yourself you're gonna make em' results look
good on the paper next year when collecting, and stay strong in whatever you
do. whatever it is, never forget the people surrounding you, and ofcourse the
one above. you're so lucky to be you, i really do envy you and your life.
hahaha(: yeah okay i'm almost forgetting that i'm sleepy.

you fulfilled my dream which every girls wants

happy birthday sharifah farahlina, always the favourite one.
(:

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-08-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

school's fine, despite the long hours spent trying to finnish up my coursework.
didn't get to be with my girlfriends for that long, only during recess. they were gone after
school as their lessons end earlier. thought of asking them a favour for tomorrow(:
but anyway, im here. and one there's only a few hours left before the clock chimes,
telling the whole world its six august. woohoooo, one more day to my big day baby!
i didn't expect my dear friends to countdown to my big day, and so i really do appreciate
your enthusiasm and eagerness(: im so touched hearing some sacrificed their early
sleep just to make sure they don't miss the moment. ahhhh am i blessed or what.
love's always there ofcourse. and to be frank, he's the main one waiting for my day
to come. tsk, what a charming prince i'm blessed with?
one more day baby, one more day. woooooooooo.

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-08-04T22:23:00.006+08:00

moon mera.

they told us fnn was compulsory, but never did they mention how complicating
and time consuming it was gonna be. tsk, it's driving me bonkers. school was
normal as usual, nothing much. oh! walked around with a red spotlight on my
decent face, hahaha. well, its okay. only those who managed to have a close look
at me would get me(: long days sucks a big time, they really do. plus! love was
able to head home once his papers were over. which basically means i didn't
get t see him that much ): tsk, its okay. my mind's all set on th upcoming saturday
baby, wooooooo. trust me, that's one of the key factors i'm staying strong, holding
on through this hectic week. imagining what and how could saturday ever take place
just put me on cloud nine(:

heyhey, amidst the hectic school schedule and etc,
2 more days t my big day baby. woooooooooooo!
\m/

cerita tentang kau dan aku

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

i'm fine.

2009-08-01T02:44:00.001+08:00

it's 02:30 am.
looks like i've only got you now dear blog
cause i'm feeling something i shan't be feeling. never felt this way for
some time, but yet again th feeling will always be sticking around,
chipping in unnecessarily. the signs? easy.

when those clear wet tears are being hold back,
and when you see me biting my lip, trying to smile
and when everything is shaking inside and it feels as if the heart is torn into pieces,
those will be the early signs of your presence. yeah, your presence.

something no one is fond of, i swear.

sighs. don't bother asking me about my day, so let's just talk about now.
breathing calmly compared to moments ago. moist cheeks, shining eyes,
and a heart made of everything strong, yet somehow fragile.
i'm fine baby(: so fine.

was school being an ass or the people were? well, it's based on how you put it.
but still im fine by the second option(; sighs, life isn't always fair isn't it?
its funny the fact that we always hear this phrase, but didn't really feel it.
you know it by heart, but still you'll get dissapointed over this and that.
haha, tsktsk. but well, i learned quite a number today, at random. let's see,

1. assume you're always alone
2. never depend on anyone. yes baby, anyone
3. if there's no one with you, hug a bolster (seriously)
4. when your hopes are down, stop checking your fone to see if anyone cares
5. mr bean always tastes good.
6. teach your heart to be strong, guide it
7. repeat number 6 a few million times
8. cry it out baby, cry it out
9. mr bean chocolate, yummm.
10. whatever you do, relate back to the one above. he's there watching your
tears and waiting for you to do the right thing. whats it? repeat his name.
not through the lips but through your heart. he's ever so willing to forgive you,
and guide you. oh am i blessed to be born as who i am right now(:
beat it.

and for the record, my favourite phrase for the week?
i'm fine(:

find your way, check it out learn each day

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.

2009-07-28T12:27:00.006+08:00

editedpost*
and i miss you, body and soul so strong and it takes my breath away.
[3/07/09 - 4/07/09 - 5/07/09, i miss them all]

last saturday, study date. stupendous, great, awesome, loving.. you name it.
currently in school right now, computer lab. slight cough, blocked nose and
craving for a fever. hehe, no ofcourse. well, somehow i hope. hehe whatever.

my aim for today is to get out of the computer lab alive. its freaakingg cold.
and i miss my favourite someone so much );
will be heading home with love today, but not for the rest of th three days ):

aww man, im gonna miss you i swear. tskkkkkkkkkkkkk.
):

goodluck for your prelims love, i know you can do your best.
you always do(: huggs* i love you, and you know it.
there's so much to blog about, seriously. especially what's happening th
past few days and a few weeks ago. like for example heading geylang and then
to johore with my momma and someone's family(: ah damn, i miss those moments.
we'll try to steal secret glances at each other, and then smile like a freak/idiot.
i missssss those moments and especially, himmmmmmm ):

PLUSSS. tomorrow's a special day. and you won't be around ):
tsk.

okay its useless ranting this way so let's move on.
study date with nuruldhamirah yesterday. we chatted more actually,
hehe. urghhh. my head is spinning and i think i'm off. hands off the keyboards
girl, chiao.

i will try to change things that kill our love

muhdkhalilafifi's
Ninaaa.